day 2

Breakfast yip I remembered today

1 fresh and fruity apricot yogurt

slice fruit bread burgen

pear sliced ontop

2 coffee trim milk no sugar

Lunch

cruskits and hummus

tea

cold smoked salmon

spiniach

2 small poached egggs

mackenzie bread

dressing

yogurt capers and dill processed(should be greek yogurt but only have ordinary natural)

Went to ricccarton mall this afternoon picked up my layby from TS14 HOWEVER more on layby

funky necklace and a vest.

then I went to K and K and oops found just what I have been wanting a nice rain/shower coat in the most gorgeous red and a felt/wool coat in black wide laple and large button. sadly they dnt have a picture on the website yet.

I also went to Farmers and got the most cute fish plates(in pic of dinner) and 2 nice smokky black glasses for my optifast shakes and from a little boutique kitchen shop red cup and saucer for my coffee (long black cup)

Also got a set of 3 funky silver dangly earings

So I have a great day shopping and spoiling myself.

more news

had a phone call this afternoon from surgeon's(Mr Kelly) PA and she had some reasuring news.
Mr Kelly suggests I see another surgeon...I said that was the way I was thinking and could he refer me to David Schroder in Hamilton so that is how it is looking.

In the mean time

food today

Breakfast
oops forgot

Lunch
3 tbls Hummus
4 cruskits

afternoon snack
banana

tea yum
1/2 fillet of smoked salmon
coleslaw from supermarket deli
meslin lettuce
alpha sprout
carrot
tomoate
1/8 avocardo
edam cheese
dill
capers
boiled egg

very tasty

had 3 small walks
did my meds

watch me I am going to win this

the news is

not good.

Some of you had already worked it out I was heading for weight loss surgery.

I went to see the surgeon etc and he wanted me to have breathing test etc and the out come of it is...my lung is not able to cope with a huge operation like this so the brunt of it is...no surgery.

I was/am so gutted
I didnt know what to do
I cant believe what to do
Where do I go from here I am lost
I am had it
I might as well curl up and die now
what else is there to do

WELL

for a start Felicity Jane Dagg get ya fucken self off that pity track yeah so he has said no what r u going to do about it.

I am going to use the cash to still improve my health or I am gonna bloody die trying.

I am going to visit my doctor
I am getting a dietican
I am getting councelling
I am getting a personal trainer
I am going to auqa classes
I am going back to breathing dr again to see what I can do.

I am not giving up

and I will get my doctor to put me forward for public surgery because the wait will be 2 yrs minimum so I will be better by then.

had an awesome day yesterday.

2 friends and I meet at Riccarton Mall, I paid 100 of my layby at TS14 and then bought another $120 of sale items ggrrr I cant stop...but the pants were gorgoeus pin stripe fabric with a pink stripe on grey button detail at hem and stretch fabric elastic waist loook so comfy also got a long line tank thing in the bright pink to wear with them....I am going to look so hot next summer going to have to change clothes every hour of the day to get to wear them all though heheheh.

I MUST STOP BUYING.

I didn't get my boots they didnt go near my hideously fat calves so will just keep wearing the onse I have, but b4 I do again I will get the heels fixed where I have walked over on them that will be so much more comfy.

We then went over to Merivale mall to a Style workshop what shape are you what to wear for your shape-it was fantastic and so interesting. Stephanie Rumble was the presenter she is a personal stylist based here in Chch of course she is a size 10 but still extremely interesting....I laughed she was saying hour she was doing a wardrobe audit for a lady it took 10 hours heheh she hasnt seen mine has she would take a week for mine. Go back today and it is colours tomorrow is accesories and that will be nice cause hey at any size u can get fancy rings scarves or bags to fancy up ya black on black on black heheh not that I am wearing much black these days.

then this afternoon I have an apoointment with the specialist which will change my life for ever either way what he has to say but I haope it is good news...will report on that later.

but for now I BEST GET MOVING I didnt get anything done yesterday just up and off and home at 6.30 intime to cook tea so best do some chores b4 I leave today...also want to plant out some bedding plants I bought other day...so best get moving.

talk again SOON

good morning program yesterday some good tips

http://tvnz.co.nz/good-morning/s2010-e220310-lisaoneill1-video-3427932

http://tvnz.co.nz/good-morning/s2010-e220310-lisaoneill2-video-3427939

wow I love city living

I have had such a great week

Monday; tests at hospital (so that wasnt so great) and visited a friend who is in hospital

Tuesday; Lunch with my friend Ngaire, then went to lawyer signed my will. had flu vac and then went to Brighton had a look around the shops there not much left to bother looking at really and to think Brighton use to be humming b4 saturday trading took off.

Wednesday; Funeral (again not so great but also nice to catch up with family I havent seen since proabably the last funeral). On way home called into Classic Clothing and bought a lovely charcoal fine knit tunic and red top and couple scrummy scarves I am going to look so hot this winter.

Thursday; cleaned house and ironing a must unfortunatly with all these new clothes. went to beautican got face waxed feel less like a werewolf, then I Shopped for winter clothes for step daughter she will be warm and cosy and cute cant wait to see the smile on her face tomorrow when I show her all her lovely stuff.

today; cleaned house again why doesnt it stay clean then meet Margaret(fellow blogger) for lunch yummy and great conversation and even had a wine tasty. Then I went over to my aunties and picked up a couple things she had for Mum. Then at 5 meet another blogger Paula for coffee nattered till well ffter 6 shot to supermarket got few supplies for tea forgot milk for me but should be enough for breakfast coffee then home to cook a scrummy steak, mushrooms, roaster tatties, onions and egg meal...yum yum yum

Tomorrow after Alan finishes work we are off to Twizel for the night-sort out some crap that went on down there after house sold. Taking Brooke with us to see Grandma Margaret etc b4 the winter. Home again Sunday so a very quick trip.

Monday hopefull a day of rest.

Wed Thurs Fri and Sat next week Merivale mall are having a Style week

wed what to wear for your body shape, thursday, colours, Fri accessories, Sat putting it all together so I am spending pretty much all next week in Merivale hehehe Also going to Kumfs shoe store to buy some new boots

Also have an appointment with the specailist on Thuesday so hope have some good news I can then reveal.

but right now I am off to bed 10.30 and this old chook is pooped

what have i been doing this week

well since Tuesday I have been vomitting and etc (you need no more info on that) and felt reall rough still very whoozy and quick to move if I need the bathroom i can tell you.


Cold wet and raining today and yesterday so decided not to go out yesterday but need to go today...have some guide biscuits to pick up and got visit my girlfriend who has just moved to Chch from Oamaru I have talked about Ngaire b4 she us to live in Palmerston Nth moved back dwn south to be closer to her family...anyways she moved to chch this week...will be great to have her close.


to night I am off to Busting Out with some old Twizel friends sould be a real blast.


but before that at 6pm I have to be at riccarton Mall TS14 have a xpo of there autumn collection I went on Monday so know what I am after and want to put on layby... a blouse and vest





also will get one of those crushed cardy/shrug things in black to go with a top I bought at ts last month it is sleeveless and I wnat something to cover the ugly arms.

right get to the day Felicity

Marianne Williamson Quote

Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate.

Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.

It is our light, not our darkness, that most firghtens us.

We ask ourselves, who am i to be brillian, gorgeous, talented, and fabulous?

Actually, who are you not to be?

You are a child of God.

Your playing small doesnt serve the world.

There's nothing enlightening about shrinking so that other people wont feel insecure around you.

We are all meant to shine, as children do.

We are born to make a manifest the glory of God that is within us.

It's not just in some of us, it's in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we aew liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others

How great it that...I went to a speaker/inspiration coach last night and this is want she read at the close of her talk she had the room gobsmacked and I wanted to share it.

thursday

wow now that is original heading.

Went to an inspirational speaker last night she was great second time I have listened to her in a month but still learnt heaps

Had for a chest xray this afternoon and have breathing test on Tuesday morning.

Tomorrow afternoon I am having coffee with a group of ladies at Northlands...we chat on the web.

Saturday and Sunday we have Brooke plan to take her swimming on Sunday and to the beach to play in the sand on Saturday

Monday I am meeting with a girlfriend to go to House of Heather road show (www.houseofheather.co.nz) then we are gonna go to Westfield mall (Riccarton) to check out www.TS14plus.co.au

Monday night my friend from Oamaru is moving to Chch so staying here a couple nights before her flat is ready.

Tuesday night have a linen unit meeting. Have a lady coming with me she is keen to become a consultant, how great is that.

Friday 2 friends and there hubbies and I are going to Busting Out-should be a giggle.

A busy week.

wow huge 10days

family reunion in Westport was fantastic-awesome to see my family. Weather was AWESOME we had a bueat visit to my grand parents old farm...not much of wat once was actually all that was left was a LARGE camelia tree, then we went back to my aunties and we loaded up our cars for beach picnic. We had yummy lunch then dwn to the water for a paddle and the kids and men had a game of cricket on the sand fun to watch. Later we went back to our accomodation had a rest and shower etc. Out for dinner at 6.30 beautiful meal smoreborg and eat to much oh what a surprise there. We then went back to my aunties for coffee and cake and lots of reminising(sp). AFolded up about 11. We had to be out of accomodation by 10 as standard but part of the celebrtations was church serive at 9.30 I was late. After church was a visit to the cemetry-then on to my cousins for lunch and more catching up and family chatter.

i had planned to go home Sunday afternoon but changed my mind so stayed till Tuesday and my 2 brothers went home in my car. Nice to have a relaxed day on Monday we did go dwn the street shopping-I had bought a beautiful vase and mum wanted to go to same shop to buy a gift for her neighbour who was looking after watering the garden and feeding chooks etc. But when we got there they were closed for 10 minutes while doing deliveries (it was a florist as well as gift shop) so we wondered a long streeet a couple of shops and came to postie fashions...they had a sale on Mum bought a couple things and I bought some more trousers I know I have enough clothes to set up my own clothing shop but they were on sale 1/2 price so dwn to $15 then buy 1 get 1 free so 2 pr trousers for 7.50 each how good is that...both are size 18 for next summer.

We (Mum Dad and my Chch auntie and I) travelled back to Chch on Tuesday it was bloody hot I can tell you and I got travel sick havent been car sick in a hundred years and felt like shit to be honest. Alan picked me up from Aunty Phyl and he had a doctors appointment while I was aawy he was vomittin etc and didnt seem to want to stop turns out food poisoning from dodgy chciken pizza. Also suspected he might have had a heart attack. so ecg and bloods and chance of an ambulance turnign up if results were differnet(a precaution as he has already had heart attack) it wasnt thank god. left doc and went to supermarket to get sum supplies bought some veges to make him some vege soup and some V 8 juice and Chi so he bought up his nutrition etc. But of course this wasnt to be as i grabbed 2 pumkins priced at 2 for $2 but when they wnt thru check out charged at $3.99 each. No says check out chick that the other pumkin at that price I said very well may be but these r the ones with the price ticket on. So after a very heated converstation with the Duty Manager and not getting my produce. I rung and laid a complaint next day and the brunt of it a voucher is in the post to purchase pumkins

This weekend was very busy Friday had a pedicure and maassage booked...have greeen toenails how cool. Sat mornign hair appointment at 11 then home pick up gear and drive out to Oxford for a wedding got there early not a good idea cause I sat in the car balling my eyes out recalling last time I seen all these people I was 50 k lighter so had a poor me moment and nearly turned around and came back home. I didnt and had a good time, bed about 4am. Stayed the night at Yvonne left about 10.30 home for a quick shower and out again to a meeting/coffee with some Chch support group I belong to a great day. Home 4.30 and whacked so had a nana nap till Alan came home from wrk...blobbed since and will be havign an ear;ly night

what could a girl do-

I took my Mum to Farmers today, she was looking for a pair of warmer weight tidy trousers incase it turns cold in weekend. We are all off to a family reunion in Westport. So we went to Farmers as I said ..well they had racks of clothes REDUCED to $20 so what could I do. But buy some heheh bought 3 pair there myself and um got a nice dressy pair best she has ever had in her life I'd say down from $100 to yeap $20...a size 20 she tried them could do with a smaller size didnt have any oh well these will do ( she has a tummy problem at mo and it blows up like a poisoned pup so good for those times. I then took her to the Cathlic Chapel in square as it is Ash wedneday how did that happen means it is only 6 wks till flippen Easter. As the chapel is just across road from Columbo St farmers I said I'd hope in and see if they had them in an 18 there...they didnt but sum how another 3 pair of trousers jumped in my bag and $60 came out of my wallet to pay for them what could a girl to do they were only $20 each some down from $100 I did get a 22 in the same as mothers cause they were pretty flash. So got 6 pairs trou and a black top which is real nice, will post photo of top tomorrow the trouser probably wont photo gragh well being black, all for $140.

What could I do afterall.

Also bought a nice dress and top for Brooke(step daughter) for $30 so had a great day.

Also after dropping Mum off I shot out to Lincoln to visit with a girlfriend she use to live in Twizel a dear friend , who I missed dreadfully when she moved up to Chch. She is very keen to become a linen consultant so we chatted about that and she is coming to a meeting next Thursday for the launch of the new releases for Feb and March and a mini home show. Also my Avon lady came around tonight to pickup her linen order and she is also interested in being a Linen consultant...so much easier than Avon a million times over. So Jenny is also coming to the meeting so may have 2 new ladies starting under my name yippee.

I also caught up with another mate who I have been trying to organise a catchup with since I moved back to Chch and we just havn't managed it so great to see her too.

then my parents came over for tea...we had a lovely vege bake and fish fillets which I whipped up licketty split when I arrived home at 6.45 Alan is due home at 7.30 and Mum and Dad where coming at 7. It was yum yum meal.

Mum and Dad leave tomorow for Westport and I am off on Friday. I have an appointment with the surgeon and then my Aunt and cousin are coming for lunch to see our new home etc,(from Westport aunt had bowel cancer surgery 19th Dec and has to come over for her check up-just what she needs as it is her that is doing most of the reunion organising, but knowing Aunty P she will just go with the flow and hardly even faize her). After lunch I'll go and pick up my 2 brothers and we'll be on our merry way to Westport too...arriving in time for first of the arranged events a dinner at my Aunts house yep u guessed it the one that is in Chch for hospital appointment...that is why Mum and dad are going a day earlier to help her other 2 daughters to get ready.

All in all a GREAT day

Sadly Alan and Brooke are no longer coming over to Westport, I was so looking forward to us having our first 'Family' holiday in the bestest place in the whole wide world.... Carters Beach, Westport. Alan had organised time off from work Friday and Sat morning shifts(back in December), his rostered days off are Sunday and Monday and then they renegged on the Sat cause they couldn't get a driver to fill his shift we are all very pissed off.

Right it is now 10.45 I have been posting this for wat seems like hours and it is time for bed. I have a big day tomorrow and still havnt packed wonder what I will find to take with me hehehe.

Night all

I HAVE NOTHING TO WEAR!!!!!

I just emptied out my wardrobe and draws and this is the pile of clothes...this is excluding my knit clothes under clothes and jackets and coats also doesnt include the new clothes I bought in Aussie, or the 4 large boxes of clothes I have in the spare room that are listed on trademe. And guess wat I just no sooner took this photo and a courier arrived with the order I got from aussie when I got home last week I went online and got some more stuff...2 tops and 2 prs
of slacks.

Now the task is to weed out all the old crappy clothes that I have been wearing move my good clothes to casual wear and make room for the good and casual clothes i have bought recently and the new Felicity is about to imerge.

I am in for a busy afternoon

home

I had a MARVELLOUS time in Melbourne weather wasnt as hot as last year but still pretty warm, I only ventured out twice in the daytime ... mind you did mange to do a heap of damage to my bank balance in that time. Spend well in excess of $1000 on clothes for ME. will post some picks later...but if u r looking for nice clothes I found a heavanly place called Autographs and thye have online purchases there them is "its all about you" and I made sure that was the case.

I spent A$5oo there and since being back another 280 online. some REALLY nice stuff. I also went to Target got several tidy every day tops and Myers for some TS14 got an awesome out fit there wore it Sat night (a wee bit snug but that will soon change)

this with a green lycra top under and black pant(also bought the black and plum tops to go with it too) because I have a TS14 card although dudnt have it with me I got 30% discount of each item beacuse I got 4 or more. This will be good for at least 30 or more kilos off so whacky doo.

I have thrown out all my grotty polo shirts I have been wearing with hideous rubbung and marks on them, I have also thrown out a supermarket bag of other crappy clothes I dnt need them I might show u all the pile of clothes I have one day I need to make some wardrobe changes might do that on Monday.

The conference was excellent and I learnt heaps. If you ever get the chance to listen to Mary Christiansen as a motivational speaker she is incredible. The launch of the new releases for 2010 was incredible some absolutely glorious STUFF. Cant wait for my kit updates to arrive.

a snippet of wat is to come

how Regal is this.

I have bought this one for my kit.

and some of the cute as a button new baby range

my new do

had a pampering afternoon

pedicure I have NEVER had nail polish on my toes before...never had a pedicure b4Ive decided I take better pic of feet

than my face

back neck and shoulder massage HEAVAN

then walked well floated 2 doors along to the hair salon and had colour and foils very glam

off to Melbourne in the morning airport at 3am back Monday night

guess as it is 9.38 and I still havnt packed my case I best move my but...see ya on the other side

oh great just wat i need

just a huge day tomorrow and I can;t sleep. GREAT.

We are moving last of stuff up from Twizel tomorrow and handing house over to new owner so I need every little bit of energy I can muster and it is 10 2 12 and I am sitting posting on my blog what is wrong with this picture.

I have just had had a hot lemon drink and will try again just wish I could turn my head off and the pain in my knee off..might have 2 more panadol even though not due for more till 1 it only an hour away after all.

I am whacked

dnt know y I am so flippen tired...well yes I do dragging this extra weight trying to do the things I was doing 6mths ago b4 I got sick, and my knees and varicos viens are constantly throbbing usually wake me thru the night which of course is another reason for being so tired. Had hoped once house has sold I would get some sleep...well actually when i think about it it's not that I am not sleeping it just that I am always so sore and tired.

Had a lovely day today Alan was off wrk, which is very unusal for him to have a day of mid week so we had a lazy morning well doing those silly around house things that need doing although if u could see my lounge u would wonder what I had been doing. We decided to redeem a voucher for a meal that I got for my birthday at Montieths Reastuarant in Avonhead village...highly recomend it beautiful meal...would have loved a deserrt but just was so stuffed a pudding would have spoilt it. Tehn Alan went out to pokies with $20 last time we did the pokies was January 2009 so not like it is a habit but might become one we won 800 on pokies jan 9 and blow me if he didnt hit the jackpot today $900 thank you. He gave me 300 for my aussie trip so have already been and turned it into Aussie money so cant spend it. Pays to shop around I priced Aud at National bank $12 commission and only $7 at post shop

so a good day

monday

been a good day for most part

I am extremely tired bt that is just cause I dnt think I have stopped since before Christmas...took me all my time to get out of bed today. bummed around doing all those things that just get done rung a girlfriend and nattered to her for about an hour it was a lovely fine day which was great cause I had SO much washing the line was buckled under the weight and as much again tomorrow.

had a house full of people over weekend in one form or another....Friday night had Anthony and his partner and my grand daughter staying also had my partner daughter so gr/daughter and step daughter had a great time. But as well for tea had my parents and 2 brothers and niece and nephew 4 and 6 so our poor WEE flat was very noisy.

Sarah just wasnt geting in the bath but she was happy to drown poor Brooke cute all the same

I took Anthony and family to plane at 4.30 5ish Satuday morning and back home to bed for couple of hours. Had a linen party on the Saturday afternoon so took step daughter with me and her dad picked her up when he finished work and 3pm...she is a good kid and took her lunch with her and she sat up at table...good party. Headed over to aunties after then home about 7.

Sunday Alan worked so he txt me did i want to meet him at 2.22 and come out on his bus route with him so I meet him and got home again just after 7 cooked tuna bake for tea...but after 8 when we ate again then sat on bum for the night another several pounds on the bum.

back to today I have been having trouble with the ignition of my mighty rav and today it just wouldnt start so a big truck came and took it away a sad sight watching it housted up by its back legs and slung on a truck dragged down the street to be fixed. I had it booked in for some repairs and TLC a day spa for a mighty Rav but not till Feb when my house money comes thru so not sure if it will be off road till then could get by but be a pain...will take Alan to wrk tomorrow morning and have his car for the day ick that means a 5.30 start.

but for now it is bed time...good night.

it is offical

Sale on house has been confirmed...it has all gone thru, take over date is 1 Feb.

Huge load off but sad time too...I am going to make the most of this oppurtunity to go forward in life and look out world Felicity is on a come back.

Got loads to do today some I had arrnged for today so as I was busy waiting till 4pm came when I was to hear sale confirmation. But also have a house to clean out for visitors coming this afternoon and had a linen party here yesterday and just left the packing up till now so best move my blooming butt.

couldnt sleep AGAIN

hope once house has gone thru and all that is behind me I light be able to sleep better...things are looking up though it is payday today and I still had about $8 in my purse from last week been so long since that has been the case I can tell you. Confirmation date tomorrow it is sounding like it is a forgone conclusion but I am still expecting something to go wrong.

Going to be a busy day so hope that will help keep my mind off it all, meeting my cousin for lunch at 12. She will be in Chch for an appointment she lives in Blenheim so will be good to catch up. Then I pick up Brooke at 4.30 we have her for the weekend, dnt usually get her till Sat but I asked if we could have her earlier because Sarah is suppose to be here Friday night and will be nice for them to spend some more time togehter. Sarah, my grand daughter and her family head back to Sydney on Saturday been here 2 weeks but I seen so little of them...again my grand daughter hasnt a clue who I am. Very sad in Twizel on Sunday when she said to her Mum tell that lady to go away that lady wat a kick in the teeth that was. Then yesterday I was talking to a friend, her grandson is same age as Sarah, and they see a huge amount of there grand children and she was telling me how she surprised them with a visit on Sunday and the responce she got from her grandson...I cried. oh well that is how it will be...I am going to suggest to Anthony that we have a little more contact...after all he can find time to ring his half sister on Christmas day but not his mother.

Working this afternoon with a linen party hope it a little better than yesterday no one turned up I truely think the host didnt invite anyone but ya get that sometimes.

I am off to Melbourne on 4th Feb for a 4 day conference with my linen. Now I will have some money it will be so much more enjoyable...not that I will be able to go crazy buying stuff but at least I will be able to eat the 2 days the confernence doesnt provide food and I might even be able to buy a bottle of wine this year instead of sitting there like a stuffed mallet while everyone else was enjoying the bubbles like last year cause I was out of money. Mind you it didnt help that I left my credit card at home that I had loaded with a 1000 dollars.

I do want to buy a pr of white pants and red top from mysize shopalthough looking online to get this pic cant see it on there web site so I will be narked if cant get it. I want to wear to the bbq on the sunday of the conference.

Right there is the washing machine finished and it is now light enough to hang out so will get to that and start the day.

Talk later

SOLD SOLD SOLD SOLD

YUP IT SOLD
Didnt get my asking price but didnt go below my bottom price either...I knew if I didnt accept it the next step was the bank would sell it and I'd have got nothing and still owe heap to shit loads of ppl as i have been living on credit basically for 12 months. Goes unconditional on 22nd Jan and possession is 1st Feb, only conditions of sale are lim report so that won't be an issue all the alterations have been done with consents etc. I am stoked I am a little sad at same time as I love my little house but I can now move on and I have big planns for me and improving my health.

I am heading to Twizel today got a linen party in Ashburton so heading Twizel after (have a party on Sunday in Twizel) but most exciting I will get to have a wee visit with my grand daughter...spoke to her on the phone on thursday afternoon she is 2 and 1/2 and that is first time I have ever talked to her on a phone. How sad is that. I have been introduced to Angelina Bellarina never heard of her a wee mouse that has a ballet dress...cute as a button I did a little bit of research on computer good old google. As I finished the call I said see ya later aligater...and she came back with in a while crocodile in her little aussie kiwi irish twang so cute makes me tear up now just thinking about it...I so miss that girl how can ya miss something u have never had.

ok best get my butt into action it already 9.30 my bag isnt packed and I have to have a shower be out by 10.30 at latest

did I tell u my house has SOLD

SOME EXCITING NEWS

I Have a contract of sale for the house bloody exciting...not going to accept it will counter offer as you do but I am stocked...it is only subject to LIM reports and the usual building inspection.

The best birthday present I could have hoped for.

Had a lovely lunch on Friday with a mate from Invercagill she was in Chch for a couple of days but couldnt stay till Sat...was great to catch up

BBQ was great s HUGE day filled of up and down emotions. Several of the things I had organised for party didnt arrive on time so very annoying and waste of dollars. My son and grand daughter were flying over from Sydney but there plane was delayed several hours and we were begining to wonder if they would make it at all. But in the end it was a FANTASTIC night...some lovely gifts got 2 gorgeous bunches of flowers photo of one of them

Had few kiddies here so Brooke, Alan daughter and Sarah my grand daughter finally got to meet they played together great....I didnt get any photos of them playing but it was neat to see them all chuming up.

We had no family arguements all bull shit that seems to usually spoil our family gatherings I remember my 21st ended in a food fight and blood then one of the guest rung the cops and dobbed my cousin in for drinking and driving. it turned very nasty. Not to mention many a Christmas ruined by family crap. So a pleasant time and some neat memories.

Folded up about 11 which was plenty late enough for this old woman...half a centery u know. Actually my knees were very painfull and my feet and ankles felt like they wanted to explode with the swelling I was pleased to plonk into bed...well untiil I woke at 3.30 and lay on the couch in the cool remembering and enjoying the evening over again.

this pic has nothing to do with Saturday party just a shot from Christmas day I found on the camera...another neat memory to store.

But did I tell u I have a contract on my house so exciting.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME

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That me I will be 50 on Saturday the 9th wow of course not so exciting when people suggest that is half a century but still I am looking forward to it. We are having a BBQ and a few family and friends around so weather permitting it should be a good night.
by the way did I tell u I will be

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Now I best get my bum moving i have a million things to do and no sleep to fuel it all oh joy. Wish I could work out why I am not sleeping.

Sarah Kate taken Oct Nov when a family friend was over in Sydney

think her hat was blowing off in the wind...how grown up has she got.
So sad i dnt see or hear from her. Miss her heaps

Christmas Post

this is going to be a Christmas post so thought I'd do it today while I am feeling not to bad.

Just been and had a coffee and catch up with a fello blogger great catching up. Then I went for a wander thru the Palms mall here in Shirley (a small mall compared to most but manic enough for me thank you) managed to get a nice summer dress for $20 at millers...of course it will need to be altered to fit me but still it had been reduced from $50 and should be easy enough to add a panel and still look tidy enough I am so over cookinng in this horrid heat. Also got a nice blouse for Mum for Christmas.

Yesterday went and meet another blogging /facebook friend we have been communicating for a long time but first time we could jell a meeting up...was neat to finally meet. And as i thought a lovely lady and hope we can catch up again soon in the new year.

This afternoon I had to pop around to pick up a trade me item I won wow when u think about it that was for me too wow a $7 blouse how selfish is that 2 things in one day. I past a house that was havign an Avon sale so called in...wouldnt actuall say it was a sale so much as a lot of avon for sale but anyways I have been hunting hi and low for sum bubble bath for Brooke (3 yr old step daughter) with no luck at all...seems girlie bubble bath is a thing of the past. Stock standard stocking filler when Anthony was a kid. So anyway she had some of the lavender BB so grabbed a bottle and went to 4 stores to get sum flippen Dora stickers and stuck them on bottle and Miss muffit will love her Dora bubbles.

Went to the doc this morning my bloods I had earlier in week were all borderline so need to improve my health...small steps drink more water, 3 20min walks a day, and eat some vegetables all things that were every day accurances and now few and far bettween so any of you can harrass me constantly about the 3. I go back early Feb and she wants some weight off shem isnt the only one I am so over this blob of a body.

Head to Timaru on Monday for a wee op at Tim hospital well that is if it isnt changed AGAIN this is the 4th date i have had. Nothing serious just a Merina inserted had one for a couple years and we tried it without see if flooding etc had stopped it hadnt so back goes another one.

Alan dad has been in hospital for 3 weeks had a fall so being held for observation etc think he is convinced a home would be better. His daughter took him to look at some today he was discharged from hosptial this morning I think it was a bit well u could have waited at least couple days before ya palm him off but wat am I to say. Alan had been around yesterday and mowed the lawns and aired the place out (he has 4 or those sickening automatic air freshner things in a little 1 bdrm flat and it is VERY over powering) did his washing etc I said i wasnt. and followed thru with it and didnt give in.

My Aunty had bowel cancer surgery last week so been up see her most days and the old man was in a different hospital of course so glad he home and Aunty Pat gone home today...long uncomfortable drive for her I would think to Westport hidious nrth west wind so sweltering heat all day.

well it is after 7 Alan will be home for tea soon 9 he is calling into see his old man after work so guess it will be closer to 8 b4 he gets home) just having chicken stirfry for tea so that will mena some veges huh even if only horrid frozen ones. and rice I think but best make a start so it ready when he get in the door so late for eating as it is.

Wish every one a happy and safe holiday season.

Love and hugs to all

XOXOXOXOXO

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ok off to dentist now it is piddling down with rain and I have to catch bus oh joy let hope it not late

3 days of toothache

doesnt make for a pleasant Felicity

go to dentist at 10 I want 3 out but guessing they will only take one at a time

My diet for a week has been instant pudding or jelly did have spagetti once but think it was the tomatoe base made the tooth worse

things are still the same in my home life

Thought I had a buyer for house in Twizel but no money showing so guess that was to good to be true to have that burden sorted...really had hoped it would be sorted b4 Christmas.
Open home this weekend fingers crossed but last one had no one show. If anyone knows anyone that might no sumone that wants to buy a house in Twizel send them this link PLEASE.

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just to keep ya in the loop

I am still here...here being at Chch, here being alive, here being still living with Alan...still not sure wat I am suppose to do.

We have talked but I still dont trust him I can't how can I

The funny part of it all if there is a funny part the chick he was emailing is a scam send me money so i can come to you and then never hear again from her and see your money hehehe

funny this should be my next post

my world has come tumbling down

Friday the 13th FUCK I'll say
yesterday friday I found some pretty icky emails and stuf on my partners computer
I confronted him about it Saturday after I came home from a linen party

yeah I wanted to get caught saves me finishing it, was his reply, cowards way I know

the brunt of it is he has been email this chick sending her some expilcide 'stuff'

I feel sick in the stomach, we had a huge argument, turns out I should be working-my fucken stupid linen is a joke, and my listings on trade me a waste of time... funny how this has been bread and butter on the table for over 6weeks

I have cried buckets
I have drunk a bottle of wine (bought for a celebration when I sell the house...wat a fucken joke that is)
I have walked to the lake at end of drive and thought horrid thoughts
but what I havent been able to do is work out wat the FUCK i do from here

I am in debt to the eyeballs nasty debr collecters letters on a daily basic

I have fuck all income
I am stuffed body/health wise
I have no where to go
I am FUCKED

AND I AM OUT OF BLOODY WINE

2am cant go to bed how can I it is óur'bed there is no longer and 'our'

sleep if that is what it is called after a bttle wine..I am going to regret that bttle later but it has dulled the pain just now.

he is in the spare room not asleep

as promised

Alan daughter Brooke aged 3.5

My man Alan hard at work

new friends

I meet a fellow blogger on Sat for coffee we chatted for several hours think this friendship might grow. Also meet a new linen consultant who we seem to have clicked so will see where that goes too. Both live in this area so how good is that.

have a linen meeting on Sunday with the launch of the January sale etc so that will be exciting.

I have booked my airfares and accomodation for Melbourne in Feb, for linen Conference, so god lets hope the house sells SOON

on the house sale front NOTHING and I mean NOTHING has happened with the agent I had she showed 1 person thru no interest at all funny thing the other company have sold over 10 properties in the same time i had mine listed and one house was listed one day and signed up and sold 2 days later so bull there are poeple out there wanting to buy. So I have taken house off there books and listed with another agent this person had contacted me 3 times while house was listed exclucive so couldnt do anything but hope it goes real quick have dropped my price too sadly but if I dnt do sumthing soon the bank will forclose not to mention all the other bills I have I may come out with 10grand but better that than bankrupt. Have an open home on weekend.

so if u know anyone who knows anyone who wants a home in Twizel I know where there is a nice 3 bdroom house just waiting for them to move into.

When I had coffe on Saturday we talked about weight loss and changes to make to foods etc so have made a few wee changes had slipped back into some real BAD habits I need and want to get this weight off.

That being said I went to hospital on Friday to see specailist (I am mending have medication change and some more physio so all in all he was pleased with me Not aloud to go scuba diving drat just wat I wanted to do) I got on hospital scale and I havent gained quite as much as I thought I had but still back up to 146.8k and that is a gain of over 20k and not acceptable.

I have decided to do a 6 k walk in March so need to get some fitness back by then.

best get back to housewrk Alan is home at 4 today so will be nice to have him home for the evening, normally doesnt finish till 8 he is actually on his roster day of but asked to wrk extra so is doing overtime.

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