Hello all I am back I am well and I am feeling bloody MARVELLOUS

Thursday morning came and I went to the pool as normal hell wat else could I do.
weighed in at pool 147.9
checked into Southern Cross Hopital at 11am did the normal paperwrok etc.
Called up to Theatre at 3 scrubbed me down put my 'stockings'on and rolled me into theatre and from there and I have no more memory until I woke back in my room...vomitting. The nurses trying to get my blood pressure sorted and it was up 195/96 a little high hehehebut they got a LARGE cuff from recovery, I finished dry reaching realised where I was sure didnt come too in recovery if I did I dnt remember. My partner was sitting waiting (the surgeon had rung him about 6pm to say all was cool and completed and I did every thing I was suppose to and he did every thing he was there to do)Alan bought me up a beautiful bunch of fressia..my favourite flowers(well that is until daffodils are out in flower anyways) I was settled into the High Dependency Unit and all the moniters etc where attached. I slept pretty well and comfortable woke about 2.30 hard bed was makign my but sore so I rung the bell they disconnected me from the bits and went for a short walk and then to loo and back to bed via a wee sniff at my flowers. and then slept again till 6.30 so a good night. Woke with no pain (other than my butt) I was on liquid panadol they offered me morphine but really didnt need it.
Mid morning I was taken down for an xray to make sure my tummy was sealed etc had to swollow this horrid coloured liquid to show up on the xray and lay flat on the xray bed ouch my tummy spasimed with excrusiating pain and they had to left me up a bit...everything looked great so back to my room no more HDU becaue of the pain I took the 1mil of morphine. Snoozed off and on all Friday had several txts and phone calls and a visit from Alan in his lunch break and a friend in the afternoon , she had her gastric sleeve done 6 wks ago and several short walks...but really most I remember for day was snoozing. Alan called back again at 7.30 on his way home from work stayed a while think I nodded off couple times so he went home for his tea and I settled for the night.
Woke couple times thru night up for toilet etc but a comfy sleep.
Surgeon came thru about 9.30 and I could go home if i wanted but as Alan didnt finish wrk till 2.30 he was more than happy for me to stay till then. had an optifast thru the course of the morning and held that fine and sips of water.
Discharge and scrips etc handed over jumped on scale 146.4 a loss of 1.5 in couple days how cool, that being said I have NO swelling in my feet and hands from resting so that will equate for the weight loss but good all the same.
Packed and ready to leave when Alan arrrived ...went to after hours pharmacy to get scripts then home to nice warm house. Had a rest then up for optifast tea and pills.
Slept like a log again
Sunday was the Chch weight loss surgery support group I had planned to go with my friend who is 6wks post op but she was feeling a bit jaded so got another friend to take me got there about 1 and stayed till just after 3 feeling a bit tired Ngaire took me home about 4 and I went to bed for a snooze till about 6. Alan had taken all the wet laundry to the laundrette because it had rained CONTINUOUSLY all week...laundrette was flat out but eventually he got the washing dried.
Then Alan went over to pick Mum up from the bus she and Alan had the most scrummy looking scrambled eggs for tea. I think we went to be about 9.
Monday(today)up about 9 optifast for breakfast yum yum (not) had a visitor about 11 she stayed till 1ish then I went with Mum to the supermarket got veges etc and home lay down for a while.Had a delish tea(had made pumpkin soup pre op froze into 1 tbls into mini muffin pans) 1tbs pumpkin soup thinned to approx 1/2 cp with vege water from Mum and Alan tea(silver beet pumpkin and carrots) didnt eat/drink all but what I had was yummy. Have been drinking LOADS of water weak black tea and hot water with lemon juice. Am able to have slightly bigger sips now but being careful not to gulp. A lot of wind both ends but other than that I FEEL FANTASTIC.

thanks to all for good wishes either by txt, blog comments, email or phone this journey is already been amazing and so much more to look ahead to.

ONE MORE SLEEP

tomorrow is the day. I still plan to go to the pool in the morning hey what better way to keep my mind occupied then I have to be at the hospital at 11am and do the sit and wait thing and i am so OVER waiting, but this wait will be worth it all.

Got a quietish day today pool soon and then I guess I'll need to go to the laundrette again dry another HUGE load of towels. This afternoon I need to sort spare room in prep for Mum coming on Sunday...just need to shift the bed it is under the drafty window so cant shut drapes at night ok for the summer but not this time of year.

Right best make a move get my togs etc ready...will take laptop to hospital so hope to post Friday c u all then

The last week pre op

Monday

Went to sleep clinc for a check and they were very pleased with my results...first visit I had stopped breathing 48times on an average per hour mondy the machine read it at 4 times per hour anything below 5 is normal...still have to be on the cpap machine until after surgery

Paid the Southern Cross for my surgery...it takes just as long to spend $22,500.00 by online banking as it does to spend 22.50 very sad. And oh my bank looks very sick now.

Tuesday
pool 8 then took a HUGE load of towels etc to laundrette to dry think there was 23 towels..I know i was digging very deep into the back of the linen cupboard to find any for the pool etc. But 4 towels a day doesnt take long for them to pile up again.

then at 2 I went for a 2 hour pamper session and beauticans facial pedicure and manicure a mothers day special and I decided I deserved the treat $99 well spent I say.

Wednesday

Pool at 8 as usual.
I had a linen partty for the lady who sell the adorabella jewellery (I am having another adorabella party on Monday if anyone wants anything www.adorabella.co.nz) some really lovelyy stuff. Good party so that was nice 2 bookings for when I am back on deck in July have 4 parties in first week back think best have any more booking in the next week and just take it slowly. Working again Saturday and that is last till post op.

Thursday

pool at 8am aquajogging steam room and spa great stuff...dnt know if it does mew any good but I enjoy it and stuff anything else. have decided once I get back on my feet post op I will go down and just go in steam room until my wounds heal enough to get into the pool and spa
later
couple mates and I went to Merivale looking for a shop that had been recommended to us but we couldnt find it so went to Dress mart out Hornby nothing there said I had to buy it so headded to Warehouse got a few tshirts etc and some little ramkin dishes for cooking in post op. Then dropped one friend off and other mate and I went over to Eastgate to meet up with another blogger at macD and had coffee and catchup...home at 7.30 BUGGERED

Friday

another long day but this morning was bliss went to pool at 8am and away at nearly 11.30. like a little wrinkly drowned rat but it was great. Managed to go in the whirly pool thing a big achievement for this chick. Came home had drink with my man on his lunch break then out again. Went and did some visiting then doctors to organise my gym/pool membership post op(I so love the sound of that
post op...post op..it is gonna happen after all the hiccups...post op) then super market browsed around the Palms Mall for a while, couldnt find cheap fish oil tabs must get them tomorrow when I am out.
But found the most amazing thing god I have lead a sheltered life...frozen mashed potato, little wee fingers of frozen mashed potato flick a few in a bowl zap ém and a bit of gravy out of a tin (never seen anything of the likes there before either). Will be ideal post op (there it goes again) when I am aloud something more solid I thought I am not gonna mash 1/2 a flippin spud and make up a pan of gravy well u could have knocked me down with a feather. Also got some of that tinned chicken not fussed on the chop chop brand so will give the watties one a try.
Tuna Bake in the oven and smells darn good I was VERY naught when preparing it and had some edam cheese god it tasted GOOOOD.

Hair cut at 10.30 tomorrow meeting my cousin for coffee at 1.45 and linen party at 3 then Brooke is coming over to open her birthday presents she will be 4 on Sunday but Alan cant get her that day. So another busy day and think I will have to miss the pool...oh well even I deserve a day of 'rest' if that is wat ya call it.

quick update before I try and gett some sleep

not that I am having much of that first night was murder machine was just so uncomfortable there is no noise as such but just discomfort and the bloody nose piece keeps condesating up and so when I move all the water goes up my nose, I rung the clinic they said oh u moght need a wrap for the hose, so back into the flippen hosptial and got a wrap had blood test while there for my thyroid a new thing the surgeon wants to check HE IS NOT FINDING AN OTHER BLOODY PROBLEM and I am adimant about that. The wrap made no differnece at all still condensation but did have a little more sleep.

The GREAT news is that my brother has offered me the money and I just pay it back at $50 a week which is wat the bank payments would have been...I did send an application for NOVA but as yet as they had so many applications they hadnt been able to say yeah or nah but I dnt need it now.

So 27th May is the date and u try and stop me...start pre op diet tomorrow so optifast and veges for 2 weeks and this time 2 weeks from now I am going to be nill by mouth and very nervous heheheh

bed here I come

where the fuck do I go now....

I went to bank on Thursday to get a 5000 personal loan because these extra tests have cost me a fortune and i am sort few pennies for my op...the brunt of it is they turned me down...suggested I get partner to go joint loan but am not doing that. Have spoken to Mum to go guantor she is coming thru on Sunday for a week so hope we can sort out something, I could groval to an aunt who dripps money but would rather not. My friend offered to put up her car as callateral but that will never happen. I will go with out the op rather than do that.

Tomorrow as I said Mum and Dad r coming to Chch they r staying with my brother...he has bought a new house and they r coming to tidy there garden. Mum had planned staying on to look after me but will go back now and we will play that by ear.

We are off out to dinner at the local Workingmens Club for tea. My partner and his daughter are taking me out to picnic lunch for mothers day so that will be nice and I dnt plan on lifting a finger to prepare anything.

Monday morning 11.15 I have an appointment with the sleep clinic and will get my cpap machine thankfully partner can come with me and show me all what to docause I wont understand it all...and will HATE the mask on my face.

Monday night I have a meeting for my linen...great time to become a consultant as the rewards have got even bigger
http://www.linenparties.com/Earn-an-Income/Free-Bedroom-Package.aspx
we will get to see this months new releases at meeting, of course I had to change all my diary because of surgery changes but have managed to pick up a few parties but in reality I still am not really well enough to work to much.

Tuesday I see the surgeon at 11.45 and will get my surgery pack...hopefully by then I will know what is happening at bank.

Wednesday catchin up with a friend from Twizel Mum and my friend Ngaire r coming too...Mum knows M from church and Ngaire lived next door but 1 when she lived in Twizel so it will be another wee reuinion. Wed my uncle is having surgery on his back one of those if u dnt have it u will be crippled for life but if u do have it u still might be crippled but we have to try. So somewhere I guess we will have a catch up with them.

Thursday I have linen party then a meeting at 8pm

Friday Linen in afternoon and a jewellery party in evening. a booking from the party I had last month...it is out at rangiora might see the consultant and grab a ride with her. I am having another party this month casue I was to have one in Twizel but that has fallen thru and I wnat the freebee necklace. www.adorabella.co.nz if u like the look of anything let me know and I can order it for ya.

guess I best get tea on beef olives

seriously pissed off

got a call this afternoon from my breathing specailist vertic is yes to sleep apneia so need the cpap machine oh joy cant even stand listening to any one breathing and now I am going to be darth vader all night and from that I am suppose to sleep better..joy of joys

but the real joy is that my surgery is being moved again by a couple of weeks...at this rate I wont have had the bloody surgery before November 20th.

piss dam bugger blast shit poo fuck gosh which of these do you think I said.

Friday

had my appointment with personal trainer this morning it was GREAT she had me do steps for 3 minutes to see my fitness level-take it at your own pace this isnt a race and we r not here for u to die or throw up, she said. So I am stepping away when she said that is a minute I said u sure it wasnt 10 yrs, pumped away stepping said I think I'll quit at 2 minutes she said ok that fine u have 10 seconds...so i said oh if that the case I'll hold out till 2.5 minutes and I did..sat down while she took my heart rate again.. it was 116, from resting of 72. She said pretty good effort...I was puffing but not whezzing so my breathlessness was work related not asthma related, and I was pretty much recovered in the time she took my heart rate.

AND GUESS WHAT my fitness level was NORMAL how cool is that.

She couldnt see what the other surgeon problem was why he wouldnt do surgery why he didnt just suggest I do a bit of swimming or what ever to improve my respritory system.

but NORMAL wow that blew me away.

a month ago I had the rug pulled out from under me by surgeon saying my health isnt good enuff to have life saving surgery and today I have been told my fitness is NORMAL.

ps heard from Ts14 didnt get the job but hey that ok will try somewhere else after I have had surgery. there loss.

Great time in Twizel

caught up with friends made pretty good food choices even ordered an entree meal when out for dinner. Had 1 glass wine all time away rest time drunk soda water....went for drinks and nibbles friday night and took carrot,celery and cougette sticks and raspberries out of Mum garden...snacked on those while others nibbled on pesto, chips and cheese etc, the pesto did smell good though.

Ring to get results of sleep apniea tests today. WLS surgeon rung last week and said if i have S/A then he wants me on the machine for at least 10-14 days b4 op...so need to get the ball rolling REAL fast.

And tomorrow I have a job interveiw and ts14+, 10am, just casual work but would be great to be right there at the front line when the new releases come on board...guessing my wages would be gone on clothes but still it would be fun.

ok must get organised for the pool.

wow wat a bloody day

Suppose to be in Twizel by now but still at home cause things changed about 3 this afternoon.

Firstly this morning I went to the pool for an hour at 7.30 weighed in while there and clocked in at 145.3 which is atotal of 15.1 k gone pre op Had a lovley spa after aquajogging but only for 15 mins not the usual 30 because needed to get home showered and changed for a beautican appointment face wax and pedicure...felt good to be pampered and a wee bit of a wind down things have felt like a merry go round of later. Next appointment was at 11.45 at the surgeon a new one Mr Richard Flint at Southern Obesity Surgery, Alan came to. Flint just couldnt understand why the other fella wouldnt do the surgery...the breathing results lung xray and blood results are all normal...yeah so I have asthma dah so do a lot of other patients...if Kelly thinks he is only gonna operate on healthy obese people he is in for a shock.

So all went well with surgeon opertation is set down for 13th May...all good there.

Went to lunch along the road cause had another appoinment at same office 1.5 later not enough time to shot home really...had a yummy salad for lunch and shouted myself a diet coke.

Back to next appointment at 2pm and things went a bit topsy tervey around that time. The breathing specialist was also very satisfied with results he had. xray was fine, chest was clear when he listened, the breathing test down last month was good enough that he didnt want another one done, lung capsity good..oxygen levels great, yeah so I have a bit of asthma well that is possibly weight related, I said that is what I hae said all along.

Then the bombshell hit...sleep apneia he asked me the stock standard questions I have been asked before I knew the right answers to give but that is just lieing and after all it is my health we are playing with here which equates to my life. So u guessed it he wants me to do sleep tests...I have a smaller version of the sleep test machine for the night will drop it into the clinic tomorow on way out of town. they will then contact the sleep clinic at public and hope I can get all done on the cheap..he was mindful of the cost of surgery, which I appreciate greatly. So staying home another night.

Been to supermarket and got salad mix for tea as I have already packed everything into chilli bin and cant be tossed unloading it again. Going to be a little leaniant with optifast diet for a few days will stil do it but like tonight having a little salmon with my salad...I dnt think I'll hold out for 6weeks al up

I am whacked and am sure will go into a deep sleep tnight...could go to bed now if truth be known and it not 7 yet.

Cant decide if I'll go to pool tomorrow if I do it will have to be at 7 to be home and fed b4 8.30 when we r leaving for Twizel.

Alan still doesnt know I am still home cause he left his phone at home today wont that be a nice surprise for him

Forgive me Bloggers for I have sinned

I went to Riccarton Mall today for an erand for Alan and the shop was right next to TS14 and I just couldnt help myself...

bought a top/jacket, a cardi,(in paprika not green just a sample colour) a skivy thing and pair of slacks...how gorgeous is this paprica colour

dont panic Janene I bought them in a medium and size 20 pants

went and visted a friend yesterday who just had a seeve suregery on Thursday wow she looks amazing hardly think she has had surgery. She came home today and will go and see her on Monday and talk sleeve options verse by pass...so will be good to hear from a differnet option want all avenues researched before Tuesday. She is so amazing really pushing the surgeon to go for my op, if it is up to her it will happen.

Went to pool this mornign with Alan was very nice we were there at 7 an hour aqua jogging then 30 min in spa...beautiful Then home for him to get to work and bugger it his car woruldnt start so I had to take him to work hense being in Riccarton area.

Then over to Parkland 20k the other side town to get my hair coloured and cut very pleased although was wondering wat it would look like. The colour of the product for foils was raspbery pink and I thought oh well it will be noticable but no it is VERY sutle andI am very happy with it.

Then back over to other side town pick up Alan from wrk. Then pick Brooke his daughter up stop at vege shop. Then home Alan tried to jump start car but nope it wasnt budging so we tow started it and away it went.

now it time to cook tea...they r having BBQ sausages and patties me I am having optifast and salad.

been busting a valve to get in here all day

This morning I went for a weigh in at the old surgeon cause they are the only scales I have recently used and guess wat preop optifast diet for 5-6days(cant remember) but a loss of 12.4k

yeap u read it right 12.4 bloody kilo I cant beleive it.

that nearly 2 stone
that is 27 packs of butter
that is more than a bag of spuds

That is incredible...i knew I had lost I hoped for 8 be thrilled with 10 but bloody hell 12.4 dont forget that .4 cause that is nearly andother 1/2 kilo.

talk more later tea is cooked

another good weekend

I have had a great weekend

Yesterday i didnt go to pool I pissed around to much doing begger all so was a bit tight for time...I had to be at Riccarton mall at 1pm to listen to Anika Moa promoting her new album "Love in motion" it was great to catch up with Anika and her Mum, I knew it had bbeen a while since I had seen them but gee didnt realise it was over 5 yrs.

After mall i went to Blenheim Rd warehouse meet Alan for coffee after he finished work at 3 wheich turned into a late lunch he had toasted sandwiche and I had a lovely fresh crisp green salad...cos i am trying very hard at day 4 to follow the optifast pre op diet...I want to show the surgeon i really am commited to this wrking.We wondered around the warehouse for a while got a couple things for the garden as that was on the plan for Alan this weekend is put the garden to bed for winter.

Home had a wee nana nap the up to get tea ready Ngaire came around and we had a lovely evening. I had tomato, portobello mushroom and green pepper in the goerge foreman and steamed bok choy carrot and corguettes also did corn on cob and sausages for ngaire and alan.

Ngaire went home about 9.30 a lovely day.

Today i went to the pool this morning got back about 11 had a cuppa and some diet jelly was feeling a bit peekish. Folded a mountain of laundry. Made a lovely salad for lunch-meslin mix, carrot, sp onion, tomatoe,mint,avocardo (still not sure this is allowed but tough) added cucumber ,boiled egg and cheese cubes to alan's so hard not to pop some of cheese in my mouth but I didnt and pleased with myself.

This afternoon I just bummed around making a mess unpacking shit, then about 2.30 I got this wave of oh my god i am so tired so wnet for a lie down and u guessed it house like a pit and we got visitors Alan sister and brother in law from Ashburton I could have crawled under the bed and died. Got up made a cuppa ( I am drinking black tea cause cant drink black coffee and not allowed milk) showed Andrea some of my new clothes she had been to TS 14 bought cardi and tunic very nice but no I not off there tomorrow to buy same. After they left I cleared up my mess and got tea. Alan finished off the lawns what he done looks neat he was disapointed he didnt get as much as he had planned done. Tea was mushrooms in balsamic vinegar and my oil allowance, steamed carrots and silver beet and cooked tomatoe as weird as it sounds it actually was yummy. having some diet jelly now although not hungrey seem to wake about 1am hungrey so working on beating that hunger.

Pool at 8am again tomorrow meeting Gabby there (new friend from around corner she has her surgery on Thursday with the surgeon I hope to have) and Ngaire will pick me up. My brothers birthday tomorrow so guess will c him some part of it. Have a meeting tomorrow night so will be early tea I guess.

ok here's where I'm at

Yesterday I rung another surgeon here in Chch and spoke to them for some considerable time and he cant see y i cant have the surgery...I have an official appointment on the 20th and am hanging out for that day I can tell you. Will take all results of breathing tests and chest xray and also my peakflow reading fr these last few weeks.

In the meanwhile i have started the Optifast pre surgery diet, in hopes this will show him I am keen as mustard and hopefully he will say ok and do it soon cause I am prepared wouldnt it be fantastic if it was still by end of month...would be so funny if it was 10th May cause that is the day I started my original journey way back in 2000...10 yrs later I weigh the same friggen weight how bloody depressing is that.

Yesterday I went and picked up my laybys from K&K and Ts14+ no idea why I bothered putting them on layby as it happens. As I stepped on the escalator at the Mall my knee went out on me and down I went scrapped all back of my left leg and bruised my bum and my pride...shock me up a bit, girls in TS were great made me sit down and got me water checking up if I was ok etc. But thrilled with my coat etc so worth the topple.

Going to Mall on Saturday to listen to ANika Moa sing promoting her new album.

Been to the pool 3 times this week loving it after all that is one of the things I said I would do when I moved up here and QE2 is only 5 mins away.

Had my optifast so off now to cook the veges for tea. Vege Ratatouille

ok here's where I'm at

Back to the pool this morning

good dam early though bloody 8am...which was beaut and it only cost $2 with ya community services card at that hour BUT I havent been up at 6 in ages...by time I got my shit together. I tried having a smoothy with optifast but my berries were still frozen and blender wouldnt prcess them so went with out breakfast not a good move cause was hungrey when we finished (aqua jogging 30mins spa 30 mins oh that was nice then we wnet in the steam room for couple minutes-thought it was going to be to much at first but then got use to it but could minutes was all needed for a first time) and all for $2-cant beat that.
Took my friend Ngarie today she chickened out yesterday very shy and self consious of her body is our Ngaire. But she came today and LOVED it. and we are going again tomorrow.

About to swollow my first drink of Optifast hhmmm I have put some mixed berries in it so hope that will drown the taste.

Going over to Riccarton today to pick up the clothes I put on layby at TS14 and KandK last week dnt know why I just didnt pay for them on the day...as It is exactly the same money I am using to pay them now

Got a meeting tonight so will be after 9.30 b4 we are home so I will take Alan's tea with me and he can eat it when I pick him up...last week it was like 10.30 b4

back later gotta take alan back to work...optifast is horrid as I suspected taste just like that bloody god awful herbalife shite I had 100 rs ago but if it means I am going to have surgery then I will persivere

I just posted on support site I visit

as I was re reading what I wrote it dawned on me

50 years it has taken but I just had a light bulb moment

'treats dont have to be food' dah some people are a bit slow on the learning huh.

I didnt eat any chocolate all oer easter, baked with chocolate-only bought thick aand chunky rather than buttons cause would be to easy to fall into the bag when I went in pantry. gave the 2 bits not used to Alan. Was Chocolate easter things all weekend but not a scrap passed my lips.

PROUD OF ME.

Yesterday I went to Farmers and bought 6 nice coffee mugs (I had been out last week and given a coffee in same cups and liked them she had got them from farmers...went and got sum on sale) $2 each so got 6 and as I was pushing the eftpos machine decided this is my easter treat...non food treat the light bulb moment.

Off to the pool this afternoon with 2 friends so we can speer each other on then a spa...yeah

At 4 I am going to the doctor...if my chest is so bad I cant have surgery then I want something done about it. I am also going to get a referal to Dunedin for private surgery...not leaving all my eggs in one basket this time. Hamiltong referral has been sent so hope to hear very soon from there.

I also have an appointment on Tuesday with a nutritionist...Lea Stening. I went and listened to her talk a million years ago and I was enthrauled with wat she had to say and have still even retained some of it over the time...so I thought hey I want to talk to a dietiacan or the likes why not someone I actually enjoyed listeneing too $250 for 5 sessions (one I priced was $300 each session so I know which I like)

ok washing machine has finished been grey and drizzly for couple days so nice that we have sun today and the line is buldging more needs doing but would like to get this dry then hope fore another fine day tomorrow

Happy Easter to all my blogging family

Had a nice day yesterday

Baked in morning

Rice Muffins
Marmite Scrolls
Weetbix Biscuits

Then run Mum had a natter to her for couple hours

When Alan got home from wrk we turned off the computers, cell phones and landline and just spent the time together NO INTURUPTIONS...we didnt do much but it was nice all the same. Then in evening after a simple tea( well simple for him he watched but I alwys think toasted sandwiches are harder wrk that a big meal cause they r so fiddly and u have to stand over them all the time) we then watch a couple of DVD. I had been given The Topp Twizns movie in Jan for my brthday and hadnt watch it so that was good to see the other was The Cronicles of Raddick definately a boy flick but enjoyed it in parts...was just nice to watch togtehter.

Food yesterday was ok (nibbled a few bits of baking) but all up pretty good and much better than I had been.

Today we have Brooke and my girlfriends daughter (they r shifting) so will be a fun day listening to little girl chatter and laughter..we were going to have a picnic but at present is very cool so maybe an inside picnic and Dumbo on video perhaps.

I will beleive

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=b-7WcoeueLI&feature=related

http://www.myfitnesspal.com/food/diary/waitover?date=2010-04-02

c if this works

this will actually be a post on thursdays happenings but before I start
Happy Easter one and all (hope the easter treats dont over power you-I am having a hot cross Bun for lunch today and THAT IS IT)

ok
Thursday

didnt really do that much
housework washing grocery shopping coffee with a friend. Had a meeting at 7.30 and didnt get home until 10 so very late for tea...but I was good wee chickee and prepared it all b4 I left so it was just heat and eat...glad i did cause it would have been takeaways if not.

Breakfast
instant uncle toby porridge(apple and cinnamin)
100ml pot of FF yogurt

Lunch (3pm)
chicken slices from deli at suppermarket
coleslaw from deli
piece home made shortbread(friend had just finished baking when I arrived she put 3 pieces on my plate with coffee I had started eating a piece and thought wow horsie u not suppose to be eating this sortta stuff-so put the plate with other 2 pieces on the bench)
glass of cranberry drink (sugery but nice and cold on a hot day)

snack (6pm)
banana before leaving for meeting

tea (10ick)
chicken cooked in tomatoe
pasta
corn on cob
portobello mushroom stuffed with pinenuts and blue cheese

then fell into bed not the bed of options next week we have a slightly later time so I'll make tea b4 go and eat mine and take alans to eat when he finish work b4 meeting far to late tobe eating.

had stupid dreams all night and woke up exhausted Alan said I cant even stop wrking and take it easy in my sleep...he could be right. But that is what I am like when I am dieting and by mid net week I just wont be able to sleep at all if it goes to normal. Oh joy.

Ok best get on with Friday

day 2

Breakfast yip I remembered today

1 fresh and fruity apricot yogurt

slice fruit bread burgen

pear sliced ontop

2 coffee trim milk no sugar

Lunch

cruskits and hummus

tea

cold smoked salmon

spiniach

2 small poached egggs

mackenzie bread

dressing

yogurt capers and dill processed(should be greek yogurt but only have ordinary natural)

Went to ricccarton mall this afternoon picked up my layby from TS14 HOWEVER more on layby

funky necklace and a vest.

then I went to K and K and oops found just what I have been wanting a nice rain/shower coat in the most gorgeous red and a felt/wool coat in black wide laple and large button. sadly they dnt have a picture on the website yet.

I also went to Farmers and got the most cute fish plates(in pic of dinner) and 2 nice smokky black glasses for my optifast shakes and from a little boutique kitchen shop red cup and saucer for my coffee (long black cup)

Also got a set of 3 funky silver dangly earings

So I have a great day shopping and spoiling myself.

more news

had a phone call this afternoon from surgeon's(Mr Kelly) PA and she had some reasuring news.
Mr Kelly suggests I see another surgeon...I said that was the way I was thinking and could he refer me to David Schroder in Hamilton so that is how it is looking.

In the mean time

food today

Breakfast
oops forgot

Lunch
3 tbls Hummus
4 cruskits

afternoon snack
banana

tea yum
1/2 fillet of smoked salmon
coleslaw from supermarket deli
meslin lettuce
alpha sprout
carrot
tomoate
1/8 avocardo
edam cheese
dill
capers
boiled egg

very tasty

had 3 small walks
did my meds

watch me I am going to win this

the news is

not good.

Some of you had already worked it out I was heading for weight loss surgery.

I went to see the surgeon etc and he wanted me to have breathing test etc and the out come of it is...my lung is not able to cope with a huge operation like this so the brunt of it is...no surgery.

I was/am so gutted
I didnt know what to do
I cant believe what to do
Where do I go from here I am lost
I am had it
I might as well curl up and die now
what else is there to do

WELL

for a start Felicity Jane Dagg get ya fucken self off that pity track yeah so he has said no what r u going to do about it.

I am going to use the cash to still improve my health or I am gonna bloody die trying.

I am going to visit my doctor
I am getting a dietican
I am getting councelling
I am getting a personal trainer
I am going to auqa classes
I am going back to breathing dr again to see what I can do.

I am not giving up

and I will get my doctor to put me forward for public surgery because the wait will be 2 yrs minimum so I will be better by then.

had an awesome day yesterday.

2 friends and I meet at Riccarton Mall, I paid 100 of my layby at TS14 and then bought another $120 of sale items ggrrr I cant stop...but the pants were gorgoeus pin stripe fabric with a pink stripe on grey button detail at hem and stretch fabric elastic waist loook so comfy also got a long line tank thing in the bright pink to wear with them....I am going to look so hot next summer going to have to change clothes every hour of the day to get to wear them all though heheheh.

I MUST STOP BUYING.

I didn't get my boots they didnt go near my hideously fat calves so will just keep wearing the onse I have, but b4 I do again I will get the heels fixed where I have walked over on them that will be so much more comfy.

We then went over to Merivale mall to a Style workshop what shape are you what to wear for your shape-it was fantastic and so interesting. Stephanie Rumble was the presenter she is a personal stylist based here in Chch of course she is a size 10 but still extremely interesting....I laughed she was saying hour she was doing a wardrobe audit for a lady it took 10 hours heheh she hasnt seen mine has she would take a week for mine. Go back today and it is colours tomorrow is accesories and that will be nice cause hey at any size u can get fancy rings scarves or bags to fancy up ya black on black on black heheh not that I am wearing much black these days.

then this afternoon I have an apoointment with the specialist which will change my life for ever either way what he has to say but I haope it is good news...will report on that later.

but for now I BEST GET MOVING I didnt get anything done yesterday just up and off and home at 6.30 intime to cook tea so best do some chores b4 I leave today...also want to plant out some bedding plants I bought other day...so best get moving.

talk again SOON

good morning program yesterday some good tips

http://tvnz.co.nz/good-morning/s2010-e220310-lisaoneill1-video-3427932

http://tvnz.co.nz/good-morning/s2010-e220310-lisaoneill2-video-3427939

wow I love city living

I have had such a great week

Monday; tests at hospital (so that wasnt so great) and visited a friend who is in hospital

Tuesday; Lunch with my friend Ngaire, then went to lawyer signed my will. had flu vac and then went to Brighton had a look around the shops there not much left to bother looking at really and to think Brighton use to be humming b4 saturday trading took off.

Wednesday; Funeral (again not so great but also nice to catch up with family I havent seen since proabably the last funeral). On way home called into Classic Clothing and bought a lovely charcoal fine knit tunic and red top and couple scrummy scarves I am going to look so hot this winter.

Thursday; cleaned house and ironing a must unfortunatly with all these new clothes. went to beautican got face waxed feel less like a werewolf, then I Shopped for winter clothes for step daughter she will be warm and cosy and cute cant wait to see the smile on her face tomorrow when I show her all her lovely stuff.

today; cleaned house again why doesnt it stay clean then meet Margaret(fellow blogger) for lunch yummy and great conversation and even had a wine tasty. Then I went over to my aunties and picked up a couple things she had for Mum. Then at 5 meet another blogger Paula for coffee nattered till well ffter 6 shot to supermarket got few supplies for tea forgot milk for me but should be enough for breakfast coffee then home to cook a scrummy steak, mushrooms, roaster tatties, onions and egg meal...yum yum yum

Tomorrow after Alan finishes work we are off to Twizel for the night-sort out some crap that went on down there after house sold. Taking Brooke with us to see Grandma Margaret etc b4 the winter. Home again Sunday so a very quick trip.

Monday hopefull a day of rest.

Wed Thurs Fri and Sat next week Merivale mall are having a Style week

wed what to wear for your body shape, thursday, colours, Fri accessories, Sat putting it all together so I am spending pretty much all next week in Merivale hehehe Also going to Kumfs shoe store to buy some new boots

Also have an appointment with the specailist on Thuesday so hope have some good news I can then reveal.

but right now I am off to bed 10.30 and this old chook is pooped

what have i been doing this week

well since Tuesday I have been vomitting and etc (you need no more info on that) and felt reall rough still very whoozy and quick to move if I need the bathroom i can tell you.


Cold wet and raining today and yesterday so decided not to go out yesterday but need to go today...have some guide biscuits to pick up and got visit my girlfriend who has just moved to Chch from Oamaru I have talked about Ngaire b4 she us to live in Palmerston Nth moved back dwn south to be closer to her family...anyways she moved to chch this week...will be great to have her close.


to night I am off to Busting Out with some old Twizel friends sould be a real blast.


but before that at 6pm I have to be at riccarton Mall TS14 have a xpo of there autumn collection I went on Monday so know what I am after and want to put on layby... a blouse and vest





also will get one of those crushed cardy/shrug things in black to go with a top I bought at ts last month it is sleeveless and I wnat something to cover the ugly arms.

right get to the day Felicity

Marianne Williamson Quote

Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate.

Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.

It is our light, not our darkness, that most firghtens us.

We ask ourselves, who am i to be brillian, gorgeous, talented, and fabulous?

Actually, who are you not to be?

You are a child of God.

Your playing small doesnt serve the world.

There's nothing enlightening about shrinking so that other people wont feel insecure around you.

We are all meant to shine, as children do.

We are born to make a manifest the glory of God that is within us.

It's not just in some of us, it's in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we aew liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others

How great it that...I went to a speaker/inspiration coach last night and this is want she read at the close of her talk she had the room gobsmacked and I wanted to share it.

thursday

wow now that is original heading.

Went to an inspirational speaker last night she was great second time I have listened to her in a month but still learnt heaps

Had for a chest xray this afternoon and have breathing test on Tuesday morning.

Tomorrow afternoon I am having coffee with a group of ladies at Northlands...we chat on the web.

Saturday and Sunday we have Brooke plan to take her swimming on Sunday and to the beach to play in the sand on Saturday

Monday I am meeting with a girlfriend to go to House of Heather road show (www.houseofheather.co.nz) then we are gonna go to Westfield mall (Riccarton) to check out www.TS14plus.co.au

Monday night my friend from Oamaru is moving to Chch so staying here a couple nights before her flat is ready.

Tuesday night have a linen unit meeting. Have a lady coming with me she is keen to become a consultant, how great is that.

Friday 2 friends and there hubbies and I are going to Busting Out-should be a giggle.

A busy week.

wow huge 10days

family reunion in Westport was fantastic-awesome to see my family. Weather was AWESOME we had a bueat visit to my grand parents old farm...not much of wat once was actually all that was left was a LARGE camelia tree, then we went back to my aunties and we loaded up our cars for beach picnic. We had yummy lunch then dwn to the water for a paddle and the kids and men had a game of cricket on the sand fun to watch. Later we went back to our accomodation had a rest and shower etc. Out for dinner at 6.30 beautiful meal smoreborg and eat to much oh what a surprise there. We then went back to my aunties for coffee and cake and lots of reminising(sp). AFolded up about 11. We had to be out of accomodation by 10 as standard but part of the celebrtations was church serive at 9.30 I was late. After church was a visit to the cemetry-then on to my cousins for lunch and more catching up and family chatter.

i had planned to go home Sunday afternoon but changed my mind so stayed till Tuesday and my 2 brothers went home in my car. Nice to have a relaxed day on Monday we did go dwn the street shopping-I had bought a beautiful vase and mum wanted to go to same shop to buy a gift for her neighbour who was looking after watering the garden and feeding chooks etc. But when we got there they were closed for 10 minutes while doing deliveries (it was a florist as well as gift shop) so we wondered a long streeet a couple of shops and came to postie fashions...they had a sale on Mum bought a couple things and I bought some more trousers I know I have enough clothes to set up my own clothing shop but they were on sale 1/2 price so dwn to $15 then buy 1 get 1 free so 2 pr trousers for 7.50 each how good is that...both are size 18 for next summer.

We (Mum Dad and my Chch auntie and I) travelled back to Chch on Tuesday it was bloody hot I can tell you and I got travel sick havent been car sick in a hundred years and felt like shit to be honest. Alan picked me up from Aunty Phyl and he had a doctors appointment while I was aawy he was vomittin etc and didnt seem to want to stop turns out food poisoning from dodgy chciken pizza. Also suspected he might have had a heart attack. so ecg and bloods and chance of an ambulance turnign up if results were differnet(a precaution as he has already had heart attack) it wasnt thank god. left doc and went to supermarket to get sum supplies bought some veges to make him some vege soup and some V 8 juice and Chi so he bought up his nutrition etc. But of course this wasnt to be as i grabbed 2 pumkins priced at 2 for $2 but when they wnt thru check out charged at $3.99 each. No says check out chick that the other pumkin at that price I said very well may be but these r the ones with the price ticket on. So after a very heated converstation with the Duty Manager and not getting my produce. I rung and laid a complaint next day and the brunt of it a voucher is in the post to purchase pumkins

This weekend was very busy Friday had a pedicure and maassage booked...have greeen toenails how cool. Sat mornign hair appointment at 11 then home pick up gear and drive out to Oxford for a wedding got there early not a good idea cause I sat in the car balling my eyes out recalling last time I seen all these people I was 50 k lighter so had a poor me moment and nearly turned around and came back home. I didnt and had a good time, bed about 4am. Stayed the night at Yvonne left about 10.30 home for a quick shower and out again to a meeting/coffee with some Chch support group I belong to a great day. Home 4.30 and whacked so had a nana nap till Alan came home from wrk...blobbed since and will be havign an ear;ly night

what could a girl do-

I took my Mum to Farmers today, she was looking for a pair of warmer weight tidy trousers incase it turns cold in weekend. We are all off to a family reunion in Westport. So we went to Farmers as I said ..well they had racks of clothes REDUCED to $20 so what could I do. But buy some heheh bought 3 pair there myself and um got a nice dressy pair best she has ever had in her life I'd say down from $100 to yeap $20...a size 20 she tried them could do with a smaller size didnt have any oh well these will do ( she has a tummy problem at mo and it blows up like a poisoned pup so good for those times. I then took her to the Cathlic Chapel in square as it is Ash wedneday how did that happen means it is only 6 wks till flippen Easter. As the chapel is just across road from Columbo St farmers I said I'd hope in and see if they had them in an 18 there...they didnt but sum how another 3 pair of trousers jumped in my bag and $60 came out of my wallet to pay for them what could a girl to do they were only $20 each some down from $100 I did get a 22 in the same as mothers cause they were pretty flash. So got 6 pairs trou and a black top which is real nice, will post photo of top tomorrow the trouser probably wont photo gragh well being black, all for $140.

What could I do afterall.

Also bought a nice dress and top for Brooke(step daughter) for $30 so had a great day.

Also after dropping Mum off I shot out to Lincoln to visit with a girlfriend she use to live in Twizel a dear friend , who I missed dreadfully when she moved up to Chch. She is very keen to become a linen consultant so we chatted about that and she is coming to a meeting next Thursday for the launch of the new releases for Feb and March and a mini home show. Also my Avon lady came around tonight to pickup her linen order and she is also interested in being a Linen consultant...so much easier than Avon a million times over. So Jenny is also coming to the meeting so may have 2 new ladies starting under my name yippee.

I also caught up with another mate who I have been trying to organise a catchup with since I moved back to Chch and we just havn't managed it so great to see her too.

then my parents came over for tea...we had a lovely vege bake and fish fillets which I whipped up licketty split when I arrived home at 6.45 Alan is due home at 7.30 and Mum and Dad where coming at 7. It was yum yum meal.

Mum and Dad leave tomorow for Westport and I am off on Friday. I have an appointment with the surgeon and then my Aunt and cousin are coming for lunch to see our new home etc,(from Westport aunt had bowel cancer surgery 19th Dec and has to come over for her check up-just what she needs as it is her that is doing most of the reunion organising, but knowing Aunty P she will just go with the flow and hardly even faize her). After lunch I'll go and pick up my 2 brothers and we'll be on our merry way to Westport too...arriving in time for first of the arranged events a dinner at my Aunts house yep u guessed it the one that is in Chch for hospital appointment...that is why Mum and dad are going a day earlier to help her other 2 daughters to get ready.

All in all a GREAT day

Sadly Alan and Brooke are no longer coming over to Westport, I was so looking forward to us having our first 'Family' holiday in the bestest place in the whole wide world.... Carters Beach, Westport. Alan had organised time off from work Friday and Sat morning shifts(back in December), his rostered days off are Sunday and Monday and then they renegged on the Sat cause they couldn't get a driver to fill his shift we are all very pissed off.

Right it is now 10.45 I have been posting this for wat seems like hours and it is time for bed. I have a big day tomorrow and still havnt packed wonder what I will find to take with me hehehe.

Night all

I HAVE NOTHING TO WEAR!!!!!

I just emptied out my wardrobe and draws and this is the pile of clothes...this is excluding my knit clothes under clothes and jackets and coats also doesnt include the new clothes I bought in Aussie, or the 4 large boxes of clothes I have in the spare room that are listed on trademe. And guess wat I just no sooner took this photo and a courier arrived with the order I got from aussie when I got home last week I went online and got some more stuff...2 tops and 2 prs
of slacks.

Now the task is to weed out all the old crappy clothes that I have been wearing move my good clothes to casual wear and make room for the good and casual clothes i have bought recently and the new Felicity is about to imerge.

I am in for a busy afternoon