new weight lost 2.5 this time yippeee

ok yeap I am still alive

Have had a hellish busy month some days I dnt get home until bedtime...wish I was making money while I was so busy but it all social pretty much.
Weight is dtill coming off-well I guess it is havent weighted in a while but probably tomorrow. My clothes are all getting loose so that is wat I am going by.
Time to get out the next size clothes and list some more on trademe, when I get some money on my trade account that is.
hightlight of my week is that I have got my tickets to go to Palmertson nth for the WLS meet and greet in November I am stoked I was beginning to think I wasnt gonna get there-but now I can say I AM GOING.

What do you think of a bloggers reunion it has been over 3 years since we had the one at Chris H in P/N and I think it is high time we had another. How does March 2011 in Chch sound for everyone. I dnt have a lovely big house like Chris did but sure we could come up with a venue somewhere. What do you all think as I dnt have many blogers on my list of favourites I'd have to be reliant of others spreading the word.

have had a nice sunday almost quiet even-had a sleep in til 9.30 then up and over to pick up Brooke Alan and I took her to the cemetry it is Alan mum memorial tomorrow 14yrs since she died in his arms still rips his heart every day. Then we went around to see his Dad. And my Mum is in Chch this week, it is her birthday on Tuesday, so took Brooke to see Grandma Margaret for half an hour. Now home in the quiet the sun is streaming thru the window but a bitter cold wind I was thinking about a walk but to be honest I am pooped ad think the rest will do me as much good.

Alan and I are going to the pictures tomorrow night going to see Salt-Angelina Jolie should be good got cheap tickets off the computer $4 each

right I am off now to enjoy the quiet and the sun hope it wont be another month before I get back to right more.
Let me Know what you all think of March bloggers get2gether

July Sale

is half way thru some AMAZING bargins still left.

check out the website you dont want to miss out on these prices

www.linenparties.com

also 3 new additions to the sale

Rachel is available in dbl queen and king 30% off bringing a queen down to an amazing$113.40 how cool is that.

Medici is available in Qeen also 30% off so dwn to $113.40

and as cute as a button for the kids

Elmo (who can resist) single and dbl another amazing saving of 30% bring single down to $78.40 how great would that be for Christmas also availaBLE in Elmo is polar fleece throw and cushion cover making the bedroom complete.

a year today since my lung collapsed

and guess what I have a friggen chest infection and feel like shit...I am not having a July like last year I am not.
I had been feeling good earlier in week even had some energy and the will to do stuff I thought yeapee I am getting there then got hit in the head with this bloody infection. Stuff it.

Beautiful sunny day I would love to go for a walk may go later for a wee one when it warms up a little but the arranged walk with the CHCh WLS support group was out of the question becasue it was like -2 and cold air makes me cough on a good day...the idea of staying snuggled under the blankets had far more appeal.

Had the personal trainer around on Thursday 6weeks post op...she has given me an exercise program and I can go back to the aqua jogging again so was to start tomorrow ah not gonna happen now. So will start that again next week. I am also going back to the breathing exercises on a tuesday that I started last year.
But the exciting part of the trainer visit for me was my measurements 41cms lost from my body...best results was hip 11 cms and greatest for me was top of arm 4 cms my arm fat has always been a thing for me.

We were to go out to Alan work socail last night but because we r both under the weather we didnt go I was really looking forward to us going out together we havent been out socailly since we mored to Chch except for my family stuff. Would have been nice to go out as a couple..and I had a dress I wanted to show off hehehe another time.

Ok I am off to make myself a hot lemon drink with honey and take a couple of panadol.

July Sale HUGE reductions call me fast stocks wont last

http://www.linenparties.com/Products/July-Sale/70--off.aspx

ok where am I at

not sure to be honest.

last few days I have felt like crap almost everytime I eat anything(just had cheese and pineapple sandwich and strangly enough am ok) it goes back to Saturday I had what I thought was going to be chicken and corn soup but it was chowder extremely creamy and dreadfully rich and I was ill for hours afterwards and pretty much ever since. Ialso have had these stupid pains in my head (had them before surgery) SHARP pains in right side of head above my ear only last a few seconds but horrid and painful been to GP and she said might be my neck out going to pysio on Friday which in itself is fine casue my neck is always sore but cant see that is why I am getting the pain in my head.
Tired all the time. Did bugger all today went with my friend for lunch was her b/day then went to laundrette to dry some washing weather has been dreadful and then home and I fell asleep in my chair watching the news. God tomorrow I am on the go from 9 till late have a meeting tomorrow night so cant see me home b4 10 and I will be whacked.

size 18 how incredible that feels

3 4 months ago I was wearing 26-28

doing ok

I still get a bit woozy but have been told that could last for a few months.
Today is the first time I am going to drive I just havent felt confident (not saying I feel any more confident today but I have to do it some time)
Have been for some lovley walks went to Sumner on Saturday with some WLS girls. was a glorious day and so warm the sea looked so nice. We had a coffee then wnet our seperate ways (this is going to be a weekly walk) Then we met at Dee for a delish meal...she made chicken and corn soup then beef goulash and cauliflower mash and potatoe gratin and then jelly and fruit salad...all in little WLS sized bowls it was all very nice and company was nice. We also watch a couple of programs that Deb had taped from some American series. We left about 10.30...got home to find I was locked out gggrr sneaking around trying to wake Alan in the freezing cold I wasnt impressed.

I wore my outfit I bought in aussie(I wore it to the Linen Conference but didnt feel at all comfortable in it cause it clung to every roll and flabby bit. But on Sat night I felt really good in it and yeah it still clung alittle to my hips but was WAY looser, I also wore sandles with heels and topped it all off with my black coat which I havnet worn for 2 winters AND I FELT LIKE A QUEEN got lots of beautiful compilments.

Got visitor arrived so will get back to this later

Adorabella Jewellery party

I am having another Adorabella party on Wednesday night if anyone want to place an order.
www.adorabella.co.nz

Wednesday

http://www.linenparties.com/Products/What-s-new.aspx
check out the neat new releases this month-love them all.

http://www.linenparties.com/How-to-buy/Special-Offers.aspx

www.linenparties.com

Well this afternoon has been another rollercoaster of a ride. I am just back from the doctors(my gp this time) Had another fainting session just b4 Alan went back to wrk after lunch so promised him I would make an appointment...we decided that maybe I can cut some of me meds down-so cut out my fluid retention pill altogether,after all I have ankles again and cut my bl/pressure pill in half. While they were taking my standing bl/pr I was near to passing out-felt bloody queer. my bl/pr was 128/78 which is pretty darn good for someone who had a bl/pr 195/98.
Also got a high five from doc as to the latest weight loss.
Need to be more vidulant with my food timetable I am not eating when and what I am suppose to be. I am drinking plenty of fluid but a glass of cold water hasn't got the punch SO FOLLOW THE PROGRAM.
A warning to me and too those yet to have there surgery.

blogger help please

hey guys any of u that can help as to y I cant load photos to my blog anymore would be helpful...it is frustrating

the scales results are

a total loss of drum roll please >>>>>>>>> 9 kilos lost.
in 10 days from hospital discharge date.
total weight loss since seeing surgeon first on 12th Feburary

is 24.5 kilo (on re calculating I have robbed myself of 6kilos lots)

starting weight 169.4
today's weight 137.9
making total 31.5

I am so thrilled

THIS A COPY OF A POST I PUT ON THE TRADE ME WLS MESSAGE BOARD

WARNING WARNING WARNING
Think it was Rosie asked if there was anything that were surprises and unexpected. Well boy have I got a story for you all.
As I said in my last post last night I hadnt had any pain relief so had my normal liquid panadol as usual. But a couple of hours later I was in some real discomfort and pain so got up walked around thinking wind but nothing shifted. So had one of the other painkillers perscribed by surgeon when needed.
DONT DONT DONT DONT
Sat up for about 20 mins just to make sure I didnt react to them huh. felt a bit woozey so headed to kitchen had a drink of water and back to bed...recall falling against hall wall (bruise on right temple). Next I knew albeit very foggy, was Mum leaning over me Felicity Felciity what has happened...I tried to reasure her I was ok...in the distance I could hear Alan talking to 111. I rolled to my side cause I was flat on my back into the recovery postion and had no intentions of trying to get up...mum put a pillow under my head, covered me with a blanket and a bucket cause I was feeling sick cold and sweating. I knew I had had the pill etc but when first coming too didnt know where I was etc.
Ambulance came I was still very groggy and out there but not as bad but it was decided to Public Hospital for me. what an effort to get me off the floor and onto the stretcher, but the ambulance boys were absolutley fantastic not any oh god this fat tart or anything. Getting me out of the flat was another challenge but it happened (glorious starry night well early morning by then cause it was after 1 I think) in ambulance checked my vitals again although improved a little still not perfect. Did the normal checks along way any pain etc I siad my neck and shoulder was sore and I felt sick again. So stop and put a neck brace on and anti nausea stuff yuk that on an empty tummy is vial. Alan was following in car so I was worried if he seen the ambulance had stopped he would be panicing.
got to hospital VERY nice nurse (Stevie) she and others tended to me and eventually a doctor came just on four but by then by back neck bum knee and anything else had started hurting from lying flat on my back on the hard bed.
The brunt of it is I am ok other than bruised on my right temple and and left forehead. And jolly tired

The verdict: the pill perscribed from surgeon is a tad strong when have had nothing except fluid for a week (in reality preop wasnt hell of a lot of bulk either)
Panic over but feel like s***.

A coninciedence there was an other lady a cubical or so along from me had by pass same day as I did and in for similar reason..she took the pain releif for shoulder pain

So please GALS AND BOYS still to have ya surgery BE VERY AWARE of the Medications whether perscribed or otherwise that u take we r very vounerable

week two

post op into week two

doing well, feeling pretty good, still tired sometimes-went for a lie down at 11.30 woke about 1pm. Had visit from my aunt which was nice then after she left Alan and I went for a drive shot over to pick up a parcel from post office(letter box to small for the mail) Countdown for bread and milk type grocery items then over other side of town to pick up a trade me deal for Alan some work boots and home thru peak traffic so a long ride home. Silly me didnt think to take a drink bottle so need to get some fluid back into me.

Most of my sticky tape is off my incisions and they r looking great. Some cant even see where they r already...bruising is starting to go a pretty shade of yellow.
Cant wait to go to the surgeons on Tuesday to see what the scales say would like to think I have a 10k loss but will take what ever. My feet and legs and hands are SO thin not a speck of water retention to be seen most of swelling in tummy has gone and I am sure I can feel a thinner area in my back area.

Sitting at the dinner table tonight while Mum and Alan were eating a scrummy looking meal of Corned Silverside, mustard, cabbage, carrots and onion white sauce I sat drinking my cup of homemade vege and chicken soup it was delish too. Still coping with the fluids ok.

Tomorrow we r heading over to Riccarton tomorrow to make a payment on my layby at TS14+ (funny tommorrow they have a sale starting how coninsudental that I should need to go tomorrow hehehe)then a warrant (much overdue warrant) for my mighty rav registration is due on the 6th.

Hello all I am back I am well and I am feeling bloody MARVELLOUS

Thursday morning came and I went to the pool as normal hell wat else could I do.
weighed in at pool 147.9
checked into Southern Cross Hopital at 11am did the normal paperwrok etc.
Called up to Theatre at 3 scrubbed me down put my 'stockings'on and rolled me into theatre and from there and I have no more memory until I woke back in my room...vomitting. The nurses trying to get my blood pressure sorted and it was up 195/96 a little high hehehebut they got a LARGE cuff from recovery, I finished dry reaching realised where I was sure didnt come too in recovery if I did I dnt remember. My partner was sitting waiting (the surgeon had rung him about 6pm to say all was cool and completed and I did every thing I was suppose to and he did every thing he was there to do)Alan bought me up a beautiful bunch of fressia..my favourite flowers(well that is until daffodils are out in flower anyways) I was settled into the High Dependency Unit and all the moniters etc where attached. I slept pretty well and comfortable woke about 2.30 hard bed was makign my but sore so I rung the bell they disconnected me from the bits and went for a short walk and then to loo and back to bed via a wee sniff at my flowers. and then slept again till 6.30 so a good night. Woke with no pain (other than my butt) I was on liquid panadol they offered me morphine but really didnt need it.
Mid morning I was taken down for an xray to make sure my tummy was sealed etc had to swollow this horrid coloured liquid to show up on the xray and lay flat on the xray bed ouch my tummy spasimed with excrusiating pain and they had to left me up a bit...everything looked great so back to my room no more HDU becaue of the pain I took the 1mil of morphine. Snoozed off and on all Friday had several txts and phone calls and a visit from Alan in his lunch break and a friend in the afternoon , she had her gastric sleeve done 6 wks ago and several short walks...but really most I remember for day was snoozing. Alan called back again at 7.30 on his way home from work stayed a while think I nodded off couple times so he went home for his tea and I settled for the night.
Woke couple times thru night up for toilet etc but a comfy sleep.
Surgeon came thru about 9.30 and I could go home if i wanted but as Alan didnt finish wrk till 2.30 he was more than happy for me to stay till then. had an optifast thru the course of the morning and held that fine and sips of water.
Discharge and scrips etc handed over jumped on scale 146.4 a loss of 1.5 in couple days how cool, that being said I have NO swelling in my feet and hands from resting so that will equate for the weight loss but good all the same.
Packed and ready to leave when Alan arrrived ...went to after hours pharmacy to get scripts then home to nice warm house. Had a rest then up for optifast tea and pills.
Slept like a log again
Sunday was the Chch weight loss surgery support group I had planned to go with my friend who is 6wks post op but she was feeling a bit jaded so got another friend to take me got there about 1 and stayed till just after 3 feeling a bit tired Ngaire took me home about 4 and I went to bed for a snooze till about 6. Alan had taken all the wet laundry to the laundrette because it had rained CONTINUOUSLY all week...laundrette was flat out but eventually he got the washing dried.
Then Alan went over to pick Mum up from the bus she and Alan had the most scrummy looking scrambled eggs for tea. I think we went to be about 9.
Monday(today)up about 9 optifast for breakfast yum yum (not) had a visitor about 11 she stayed till 1ish then I went with Mum to the supermarket got veges etc and home lay down for a while.Had a delish tea(had made pumpkin soup pre op froze into 1 tbls into mini muffin pans) 1tbs pumpkin soup thinned to approx 1/2 cp with vege water from Mum and Alan tea(silver beet pumpkin and carrots) didnt eat/drink all but what I had was yummy. Have been drinking LOADS of water weak black tea and hot water with lemon juice. Am able to have slightly bigger sips now but being careful not to gulp. A lot of wind both ends but other than that I FEEL FANTASTIC.

thanks to all for good wishes either by txt, blog comments, email or phone this journey is already been amazing and so much more to look ahead to.

ONE MORE SLEEP

tomorrow is the day. I still plan to go to the pool in the morning hey what better way to keep my mind occupied then I have to be at the hospital at 11am and do the sit and wait thing and i am so OVER waiting, but this wait will be worth it all.

Got a quietish day today pool soon and then I guess I'll need to go to the laundrette again dry another HUGE load of towels. This afternoon I need to sort spare room in prep for Mum coming on Sunday...just need to shift the bed it is under the drafty window so cant shut drapes at night ok for the summer but not this time of year.

Right best make a move get my togs etc ready...will take laptop to hospital so hope to post Friday c u all then

The last week pre op

Monday

Went to sleep clinc for a check and they were very pleased with my results...first visit I had stopped breathing 48times on an average per hour mondy the machine read it at 4 times per hour anything below 5 is normal...still have to be on the cpap machine until after surgery

Paid the Southern Cross for my surgery...it takes just as long to spend $22,500.00 by online banking as it does to spend 22.50 very sad. And oh my bank looks very sick now.

Tuesday
pool 8 then took a HUGE load of towels etc to laundrette to dry think there was 23 towels..I know i was digging very deep into the back of the linen cupboard to find any for the pool etc. But 4 towels a day doesnt take long for them to pile up again.

then at 2 I went for a 2 hour pamper session and beauticans facial pedicure and manicure a mothers day special and I decided I deserved the treat $99 well spent I say.

Wednesday

Pool at 8 as usual.
I had a linen partty for the lady who sell the adorabella jewellery (I am having another adorabella party on Monday if anyone wants anything www.adorabella.co.nz) some really lovelyy stuff. Good party so that was nice 2 bookings for when I am back on deck in July have 4 parties in first week back think best have any more booking in the next week and just take it slowly. Working again Saturday and that is last till post op.

Thursday

pool at 8am aquajogging steam room and spa great stuff...dnt know if it does mew any good but I enjoy it and stuff anything else. have decided once I get back on my feet post op I will go down and just go in steam room until my wounds heal enough to get into the pool and spa
later
couple mates and I went to Merivale looking for a shop that had been recommended to us but we couldnt find it so went to Dress mart out Hornby nothing there said I had to buy it so headded to Warehouse got a few tshirts etc and some little ramkin dishes for cooking in post op. Then dropped one friend off and other mate and I went over to Eastgate to meet up with another blogger at macD and had coffee and catchup...home at 7.30 BUGGERED

Friday

another long day but this morning was bliss went to pool at 8am and away at nearly 11.30. like a little wrinkly drowned rat but it was great. Managed to go in the whirly pool thing a big achievement for this chick. Came home had drink with my man on his lunch break then out again. Went and did some visiting then doctors to organise my gym/pool membership post op(I so love the sound of that
post op...post op..it is gonna happen after all the hiccups...post op) then super market browsed around the Palms Mall for a while, couldnt find cheap fish oil tabs must get them tomorrow when I am out.
But found the most amazing thing god I have lead a sheltered life...frozen mashed potato, little wee fingers of frozen mashed potato flick a few in a bowl zap ém and a bit of gravy out of a tin (never seen anything of the likes there before either). Will be ideal post op (there it goes again) when I am aloud something more solid I thought I am not gonna mash 1/2 a flippin spud and make up a pan of gravy well u could have knocked me down with a feather. Also got some of that tinned chicken not fussed on the chop chop brand so will give the watties one a try.
Tuna Bake in the oven and smells darn good I was VERY naught when preparing it and had some edam cheese god it tasted GOOOOD.

Hair cut at 10.30 tomorrow meeting my cousin for coffee at 1.45 and linen party at 3 then Brooke is coming over to open her birthday presents she will be 4 on Sunday but Alan cant get her that day. So another busy day and think I will have to miss the pool...oh well even I deserve a day of 'rest' if that is wat ya call it.

quick update before I try and gett some sleep

not that I am having much of that first night was murder machine was just so uncomfortable there is no noise as such but just discomfort and the bloody nose piece keeps condesating up and so when I move all the water goes up my nose, I rung the clinic they said oh u moght need a wrap for the hose, so back into the flippen hosptial and got a wrap had blood test while there for my thyroid a new thing the surgeon wants to check HE IS NOT FINDING AN OTHER BLOODY PROBLEM and I am adimant about that. The wrap made no differnece at all still condensation but did have a little more sleep.

The GREAT news is that my brother has offered me the money and I just pay it back at $50 a week which is wat the bank payments would have been...I did send an application for NOVA but as yet as they had so many applications they hadnt been able to say yeah or nah but I dnt need it now.

So 27th May is the date and u try and stop me...start pre op diet tomorrow so optifast and veges for 2 weeks and this time 2 weeks from now I am going to be nill by mouth and very nervous heheheh

bed here I come

where the fuck do I go now....

I went to bank on Thursday to get a 5000 personal loan because these extra tests have cost me a fortune and i am sort few pennies for my op...the brunt of it is they turned me down...suggested I get partner to go joint loan but am not doing that. Have spoken to Mum to go guantor she is coming thru on Sunday for a week so hope we can sort out something, I could groval to an aunt who dripps money but would rather not. My friend offered to put up her car as callateral but that will never happen. I will go with out the op rather than do that.

Tomorrow as I said Mum and Dad r coming to Chch they r staying with my brother...he has bought a new house and they r coming to tidy there garden. Mum had planned staying on to look after me but will go back now and we will play that by ear.

We are off out to dinner at the local Workingmens Club for tea. My partner and his daughter are taking me out to picnic lunch for mothers day so that will be nice and I dnt plan on lifting a finger to prepare anything.

Monday morning 11.15 I have an appointment with the sleep clinic and will get my cpap machine thankfully partner can come with me and show me all what to docause I wont understand it all...and will HATE the mask on my face.

Monday night I have a meeting for my linen...great time to become a consultant as the rewards have got even bigger
http://www.linenparties.com/Earn-an-Income/Free-Bedroom-Package.aspx
we will get to see this months new releases at meeting, of course I had to change all my diary because of surgery changes but have managed to pick up a few parties but in reality I still am not really well enough to work to much.

Tuesday I see the surgeon at 11.45 and will get my surgery pack...hopefully by then I will know what is happening at bank.

Wednesday catchin up with a friend from Twizel Mum and my friend Ngaire r coming too...Mum knows M from church and Ngaire lived next door but 1 when she lived in Twizel so it will be another wee reuinion. Wed my uncle is having surgery on his back one of those if u dnt have it u will be crippled for life but if u do have it u still might be crippled but we have to try. So somewhere I guess we will have a catch up with them.

Thursday I have linen party then a meeting at 8pm

Friday Linen in afternoon and a jewellery party in evening. a booking from the party I had last month...it is out at rangiora might see the consultant and grab a ride with her. I am having another party this month casue I was to have one in Twizel but that has fallen thru and I wnat the freebee necklace. www.adorabella.co.nz if u like the look of anything let me know and I can order it for ya.

guess I best get tea on beef olives

seriously pissed off

got a call this afternoon from my breathing specailist vertic is yes to sleep apneia so need the cpap machine oh joy cant even stand listening to any one breathing and now I am going to be darth vader all night and from that I am suppose to sleep better..joy of joys

but the real joy is that my surgery is being moved again by a couple of weeks...at this rate I wont have had the bloody surgery before November 20th.

piss dam bugger blast shit poo fuck gosh which of these do you think I said.

Friday

had my appointment with personal trainer this morning it was GREAT she had me do steps for 3 minutes to see my fitness level-take it at your own pace this isnt a race and we r not here for u to die or throw up, she said. So I am stepping away when she said that is a minute I said u sure it wasnt 10 yrs, pumped away stepping said I think I'll quit at 2 minutes she said ok that fine u have 10 seconds...so i said oh if that the case I'll hold out till 2.5 minutes and I did..sat down while she took my heart rate again.. it was 116, from resting of 72. She said pretty good effort...I was puffing but not whezzing so my breathlessness was work related not asthma related, and I was pretty much recovered in the time she took my heart rate.

AND GUESS WHAT my fitness level was NORMAL how cool is that.

She couldnt see what the other surgeon problem was why he wouldnt do surgery why he didnt just suggest I do a bit of swimming or what ever to improve my respritory system.

but NORMAL wow that blew me away.

a month ago I had the rug pulled out from under me by surgeon saying my health isnt good enuff to have life saving surgery and today I have been told my fitness is NORMAL.

ps heard from Ts14 didnt get the job but hey that ok will try somewhere else after I have had surgery. there loss.

Great time in Twizel

caught up with friends made pretty good food choices even ordered an entree meal when out for dinner. Had 1 glass wine all time away rest time drunk soda water....went for drinks and nibbles friday night and took carrot,celery and cougette sticks and raspberries out of Mum garden...snacked on those while others nibbled on pesto, chips and cheese etc, the pesto did smell good though.

Ring to get results of sleep apniea tests today. WLS surgeon rung last week and said if i have S/A then he wants me on the machine for at least 10-14 days b4 op...so need to get the ball rolling REAL fast.

And tomorrow I have a job interveiw and ts14+, 10am, just casual work but would be great to be right there at the front line when the new releases come on board...guessing my wages would be gone on clothes but still it would be fun.

ok must get organised for the pool.

wow wat a bloody day

Suppose to be in Twizel by now but still at home cause things changed about 3 this afternoon.

Firstly this morning I went to the pool for an hour at 7.30 weighed in while there and clocked in at 145.3 which is atotal of 15.1 k gone pre op Had a lovley spa after aquajogging but only for 15 mins not the usual 30 because needed to get home showered and changed for a beautican appointment face wax and pedicure...felt good to be pampered and a wee bit of a wind down things have felt like a merry go round of later. Next appointment was at 11.45 at the surgeon a new one Mr Richard Flint at Southern Obesity Surgery, Alan came to. Flint just couldnt understand why the other fella wouldnt do the surgery...the breathing results lung xray and blood results are all normal...yeah so I have asthma dah so do a lot of other patients...if Kelly thinks he is only gonna operate on healthy obese people he is in for a shock.

So all went well with surgeon opertation is set down for 13th May...all good there.

Went to lunch along the road cause had another appoinment at same office 1.5 later not enough time to shot home really...had a yummy salad for lunch and shouted myself a diet coke.

Back to next appointment at 2pm and things went a bit topsy tervey around that time. The breathing specialist was also very satisfied with results he had. xray was fine, chest was clear when he listened, the breathing test down last month was good enough that he didnt want another one done, lung capsity good..oxygen levels great, yeah so I have a bit of asthma well that is possibly weight related, I said that is what I hae said all along.

Then the bombshell hit...sleep apneia he asked me the stock standard questions I have been asked before I knew the right answers to give but that is just lieing and after all it is my health we are playing with here which equates to my life. So u guessed it he wants me to do sleep tests...I have a smaller version of the sleep test machine for the night will drop it into the clinic tomorow on way out of town. they will then contact the sleep clinic at public and hope I can get all done on the cheap..he was mindful of the cost of surgery, which I appreciate greatly. So staying home another night.

Been to supermarket and got salad mix for tea as I have already packed everything into chilli bin and cant be tossed unloading it again. Going to be a little leaniant with optifast diet for a few days will stil do it but like tonight having a little salmon with my salad...I dnt think I'll hold out for 6weeks al up

I am whacked and am sure will go into a deep sleep tnight...could go to bed now if truth be known and it not 7 yet.

Cant decide if I'll go to pool tomorrow if I do it will have to be at 7 to be home and fed b4 8.30 when we r leaving for Twizel.

Alan still doesnt know I am still home cause he left his phone at home today wont that be a nice surprise for him

Forgive me Bloggers for I have sinned

I went to Riccarton Mall today for an erand for Alan and the shop was right next to TS14 and I just couldnt help myself...

bought a top/jacket, a cardi,(in paprika not green just a sample colour) a skivy thing and pair of slacks...how gorgeous is this paprica colour

dont panic Janene I bought them in a medium and size 20 pants

went and visted a friend yesterday who just had a seeve suregery on Thursday wow she looks amazing hardly think she has had surgery. She came home today and will go and see her on Monday and talk sleeve options verse by pass...so will be good to hear from a differnet option want all avenues researched before Tuesday. She is so amazing really pushing the surgeon to go for my op, if it is up to her it will happen.

Went to pool this mornign with Alan was very nice we were there at 7 an hour aqua jogging then 30 min in spa...beautiful Then home for him to get to work and bugger it his car woruldnt start so I had to take him to work hense being in Riccarton area.

Then over to Parkland 20k the other side town to get my hair coloured and cut very pleased although was wondering wat it would look like. The colour of the product for foils was raspbery pink and I thought oh well it will be noticable but no it is VERY sutle andI am very happy with it.

Then back over to other side town pick up Alan from wrk. Then pick Brooke his daughter up stop at vege shop. Then home Alan tried to jump start car but nope it wasnt budging so we tow started it and away it went.

now it time to cook tea...they r having BBQ sausages and patties me I am having optifast and salad.

been busting a valve to get in here all day

This morning I went for a weigh in at the old surgeon cause they are the only scales I have recently used and guess wat preop optifast diet for 5-6days(cant remember) but a loss of 12.4k

yeap u read it right 12.4 bloody kilo I cant beleive it.

that nearly 2 stone
that is 27 packs of butter
that is more than a bag of spuds

That is incredible...i knew I had lost I hoped for 8 be thrilled with 10 but bloody hell 12.4 dont forget that .4 cause that is nearly andother 1/2 kilo.

talk more later tea is cooked

another good weekend

I have had a great weekend

Yesterday i didnt go to pool I pissed around to much doing begger all so was a bit tight for time...I had to be at Riccarton mall at 1pm to listen to Anika Moa promoting her new album "Love in motion" it was great to catch up with Anika and her Mum, I knew it had bbeen a while since I had seen them but gee didnt realise it was over 5 yrs.

After mall i went to Blenheim Rd warehouse meet Alan for coffee after he finished work at 3 wheich turned into a late lunch he had toasted sandwiche and I had a lovely fresh crisp green salad...cos i am trying very hard at day 4 to follow the optifast pre op diet...I want to show the surgeon i really am commited to this wrking.We wondered around the warehouse for a while got a couple things for the garden as that was on the plan for Alan this weekend is put the garden to bed for winter.

Home had a wee nana nap the up to get tea ready Ngaire came around and we had a lovely evening. I had tomato, portobello mushroom and green pepper in the goerge foreman and steamed bok choy carrot and corguettes also did corn on cob and sausages for ngaire and alan.

Ngaire went home about 9.30 a lovely day.

Today i went to the pool this morning got back about 11 had a cuppa and some diet jelly was feeling a bit peekish. Folded a mountain of laundry. Made a lovely salad for lunch-meslin mix, carrot, sp onion, tomatoe,mint,avocardo (still not sure this is allowed but tough) added cucumber ,boiled egg and cheese cubes to alan's so hard not to pop some of cheese in my mouth but I didnt and pleased with myself.

This afternoon I just bummed around making a mess unpacking shit, then about 2.30 I got this wave of oh my god i am so tired so wnet for a lie down and u guessed it house like a pit and we got visitors Alan sister and brother in law from Ashburton I could have crawled under the bed and died. Got up made a cuppa ( I am drinking black tea cause cant drink black coffee and not allowed milk) showed Andrea some of my new clothes she had been to TS 14 bought cardi and tunic very nice but no I not off there tomorrow to buy same. After they left I cleared up my mess and got tea. Alan finished off the lawns what he done looks neat he was disapointed he didnt get as much as he had planned done. Tea was mushrooms in balsamic vinegar and my oil allowance, steamed carrots and silver beet and cooked tomatoe as weird as it sounds it actually was yummy. having some diet jelly now although not hungrey seem to wake about 1am hungrey so working on beating that hunger.

Pool at 8am again tomorrow meeting Gabby there (new friend from around corner she has her surgery on Thursday with the surgeon I hope to have) and Ngaire will pick me up. My brothers birthday tomorrow so guess will c him some part of it. Have a meeting tomorrow night so will be early tea I guess.

ok here's where I'm at

Yesterday I rung another surgeon here in Chch and spoke to them for some considerable time and he cant see y i cant have the surgery...I have an official appointment on the 20th and am hanging out for that day I can tell you. Will take all results of breathing tests and chest xray and also my peakflow reading fr these last few weeks.

In the meanwhile i have started the Optifast pre surgery diet, in hopes this will show him I am keen as mustard and hopefully he will say ok and do it soon cause I am prepared wouldnt it be fantastic if it was still by end of month...would be so funny if it was 10th May cause that is the day I started my original journey way back in 2000...10 yrs later I weigh the same friggen weight how bloody depressing is that.

Yesterday I went and picked up my laybys from K&K and Ts14+ no idea why I bothered putting them on layby as it happens. As I stepped on the escalator at the Mall my knee went out on me and down I went scrapped all back of my left leg and bruised my bum and my pride...shock me up a bit, girls in TS were great made me sit down and got me water checking up if I was ok etc. But thrilled with my coat etc so worth the topple.

Going to Mall on Saturday to listen to ANika Moa sing promoting her new album.

Been to the pool 3 times this week loving it after all that is one of the things I said I would do when I moved up here and QE2 is only 5 mins away.

Had my optifast so off now to cook the veges for tea. Vege Ratatouille

ok here's where I'm at

Back to the pool this morning

good dam early though bloody 8am...which was beaut and it only cost $2 with ya community services card at that hour BUT I havent been up at 6 in ages...by time I got my shit together. I tried having a smoothy with optifast but my berries were still frozen and blender wouldnt prcess them so went with out breakfast not a good move cause was hungrey when we finished (aqua jogging 30mins spa 30 mins oh that was nice then we wnet in the steam room for couple minutes-thought it was going to be to much at first but then got use to it but could minutes was all needed for a first time) and all for $2-cant beat that.
Took my friend Ngarie today she chickened out yesterday very shy and self consious of her body is our Ngaire. But she came today and LOVED it. and we are going again tomorrow.

About to swollow my first drink of Optifast hhmmm I have put some mixed berries in it so hope that will drown the taste.

Going over to Riccarton today to pick up the clothes I put on layby at TS14 and KandK last week dnt know why I just didnt pay for them on the day...as It is exactly the same money I am using to pay them now

Got a meeting tonight so will be after 9.30 b4 we are home so I will take Alan's tea with me and he can eat it when I pick him up...last week it was like 10.30 b4

back later gotta take alan back to work...optifast is horrid as I suspected taste just like that bloody god awful herbalife shite I had 100 rs ago but if it means I am going to have surgery then I will persivere

I just posted on support site I visit

as I was re reading what I wrote it dawned on me

50 years it has taken but I just had a light bulb moment

'treats dont have to be food' dah some people are a bit slow on the learning huh.

I didnt eat any chocolate all oer easter, baked with chocolate-only bought thick aand chunky rather than buttons cause would be to easy to fall into the bag when I went in pantry. gave the 2 bits not used to Alan. Was Chocolate easter things all weekend but not a scrap passed my lips.

PROUD OF ME.

Yesterday I went to Farmers and bought 6 nice coffee mugs (I had been out last week and given a coffee in same cups and liked them she had got them from farmers...went and got sum on sale) $2 each so got 6 and as I was pushing the eftpos machine decided this is my easter treat...non food treat the light bulb moment.

Off to the pool this afternoon with 2 friends so we can speer each other on then a spa...yeah

At 4 I am going to the doctor...if my chest is so bad I cant have surgery then I want something done about it. I am also going to get a referal to Dunedin for private surgery...not leaving all my eggs in one basket this time. Hamiltong referral has been sent so hope to hear very soon from there.

I also have an appointment on Tuesday with a nutritionist...Lea Stening. I went and listened to her talk a million years ago and I was enthrauled with wat she had to say and have still even retained some of it over the time...so I thought hey I want to talk to a dietiacan or the likes why not someone I actually enjoyed listeneing too $250 for 5 sessions (one I priced was $300 each session so I know which I like)

ok washing machine has finished been grey and drizzly for couple days so nice that we have sun today and the line is buldging more needs doing but would like to get this dry then hope fore another fine day tomorrow

Happy Easter to all my blogging family

Had a nice day yesterday

Baked in morning

Rice Muffins
Marmite Scrolls
Weetbix Biscuits

Then run Mum had a natter to her for couple hours

When Alan got home from wrk we turned off the computers, cell phones and landline and just spent the time together NO INTURUPTIONS...we didnt do much but it was nice all the same. Then in evening after a simple tea( well simple for him he watched but I alwys think toasted sandwiches are harder wrk that a big meal cause they r so fiddly and u have to stand over them all the time) we then watch a couple of DVD. I had been given The Topp Twizns movie in Jan for my brthday and hadnt watch it so that was good to see the other was The Cronicles of Raddick definately a boy flick but enjoyed it in parts...was just nice to watch togtehter.

Food yesterday was ok (nibbled a few bits of baking) but all up pretty good and much better than I had been.

Today we have Brooke and my girlfriends daughter (they r shifting) so will be a fun day listening to little girl chatter and laughter..we were going to have a picnic but at present is very cool so maybe an inside picnic and Dumbo on video perhaps.

I will beleive

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=b-7WcoeueLI&feature=related