well this year is nearly over.
I have 2 parties to go to New Years Eve.
I am house sitting for my girlfriend so a bit of releif from the pain and pressure..but it has to be done I have to ask Alan to leave my home. He is communicating with smut and I cant deal with that. That filth in my home isnt appropriate and guess what he couldnt stop when we were in a partnership and he supposedly loved me he isnt going to stop ever. So i have to ask him to leave. I am so worried about being away and how my home will be when I get back one of the reasons to not say anythng b4 I going to housesit. rambling over.
thanks for your support and contact re this I feel such a looser
some good news heheh
I was given a pretty dress from Pagani(think that the right spelling)size 18 and it fits That is a brand that does normal fittings sizes dnt even to over sized clothes
whaky doo
There was something I was going to actually say here but now cant remember what it was.
Thursday, December 30, 2010
Sunday, December 26, 2010
Sad lonely lump of lard
well it has been a while since I posted but there has been a reason.
I havent had anything positive to say and still dont for that matter.
I came back from Palmerston North and was slapped in the face with a wet fish well felt like it....to be told I wasnt in a relationship any more he decided it was over. Ok yup I know that for the best no longer under the influence of the cheating lying prick but still hurts still miss him at night still blame myself.
We have stayed in the flat until Xmas as such because we had told Brooke father christmas was going here with her presents and to close to change her thoughts without confusion the kid has very little stability in her life. It was bloody hard I tell you trying to pretend happy families. i had bought heaps of stuff for brooke for christmas but only gave her 3 parcels and her santa sack (which contained mostly stuff I had bought) the rest will be placed on trade me and i'll get my money back. Now I dnt know where we go from here...I cant afford to live here on my own(actually not sure I can afford to live any where) So financially staying flatting makes sence but oh it is hard. Knowing he is txting and emailing someone else over 600 txt in 5 days tell me that is innocent and harmless friend ship.
eating way to much shit
close that for now, couple of wines and thinking makes for tears and sadness
crap on tv might watch dvd Rainman perhaps
hAD
I havent had anything positive to say and still dont for that matter.
I came back from Palmerston North and was slapped in the face with a wet fish well felt like it....to be told I wasnt in a relationship any more he decided it was over. Ok yup I know that for the best no longer under the influence of the cheating lying prick but still hurts still miss him at night still blame myself.
We have stayed in the flat until Xmas as such because we had told Brooke father christmas was going here with her presents and to close to change her thoughts without confusion the kid has very little stability in her life. It was bloody hard I tell you trying to pretend happy families. i had bought heaps of stuff for brooke for christmas but only gave her 3 parcels and her santa sack (which contained mostly stuff I had bought) the rest will be placed on trade me and i'll get my money back. Now I dnt know where we go from here...I cant afford to live here on my own(actually not sure I can afford to live any where) So financially staying flatting makes sence but oh it is hard. Knowing he is txting and emailing someone else over 600 txt in 5 days tell me that is innocent and harmless friend ship.
eating way to much shit
close that for now, couple of wines and thinking makes for tears and sadness
crap on tv might watch dvd Rainman perhaps
hAD
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