Sunday, October 16, 2011

some lousy low life fucken prick stole my car today while I was at work
I am so fucken angry I could spit
First thing I wanted to do was eat second thing was kill
of course all of my linen was also in the car so that is my business fucked too
yeah and all of this fun for a lousey bloody 13 dollars an hour and sore feet and back the joy of it all
yes I am insured but that isnt going to get back all my linen etc before my next party on tuesday it isnt going to give me a car tomorrow to get the washing to the laundrette to get it dried and it isnt going to get me to spend the day I was so looking forward to out with Brooke and the Chloes on Monday not to mention all the other things that I have to do or the fact I am so pissed off my blood pressure is sky high

Thursday, October 6, 2011

http://www.grouponnz.co.nz/

great deal for the saggy bits thought i'd share

i have ordered a 'thing' to support my saggy arms from slimpressions thru the wls meet and greet and am so excited for this to arrive order sent yesterday according to email but today this offer came thru from groupon so have bought 2 body suits I have one of these already and they are fantastic and no roll down like my others. i will look so hot in my size 14 jeans my 16c bra and my size small (yeap small) body tee with the animal print cardy
wow smokin' hot hehehhe

Monday, September 19, 2011

went shopping for black pants but came home woth a bra it was black but wont cover much of me bum bing it is a size 16c and all down from 22dd

yahhhhoooo 16c 16c 16c 16c 16c

Sunday, September 18, 2011

working sucks
I am stuffed
I am tired
I am sore
I am to old for this shit

Friday, September 9, 2011

went to dentist yesterday and had another tooth out dentist was amazed at how big the root was and it took a lot of heeving to remove it he showed it to me and yup it was a biggun for sure...took it home but the tooth fairy didnt leave me nothing typical. So its soft food for me for a few days-but how come my brain says that means I can eat icecream...havnt even thought ice cream in months but straight away oh yeah means i can eat ice cream-having yogurt as we speak.

had a nice night out at pub on Wednesday I'll be going again yes yes yes music was good and nice company. best bit is my shift at work is such that I dnt start thrusday until 3.30pm so I can go out wednesday night and it not affect my sleep heheh

got a few chores to attend to today that have been building up, while I was sick. I have mountain of washing to take to laundrette to dry towels and sheets mainly. Small stuff I can put on clothes horse(dnt have a line here) but the sheets and towels go around crn to laundrette $4 a load and its done but will be more toady cause there is at least 3 loads. While washing is cooking I'll shoot to countdown (guess shopping at c/down will feel like being a traitor now like when I got to briscoe or bath and beyond) they have boneless chicken breast on specail and they had none at pak n save yesterday and I forgot to get feta cheese yesterday. Then home to do the mountain of dishes that seem to have appeared on the bench over night where do they come from...

got a linen party tonight just around road so that will be nice to not have to travel to far

Wednesday, September 7, 2011

at last an up in my life...I got a job, not a wonderful job by any means but it might be the difference between buying food and clothes. I will be a checkout chick at pak'n'save told ya it wasn't glamorous. Go in to sign my paper work and pick up uniform on Monday start tuesday but i will be telling them I am not available to work Nov 18-20 cause I am in Palmerston Nth not missing that for anything.

ok I am out of here off out dancing at local pub with a few gals from singles group, wasnt going to go then thought bugger it y not just cause I only got $7 to my name doesnt mean I have to stay at home and mope.

Friday, September 2, 2011

dont know how far I'll get but...


here goes.

September 2nd sitting up at 3am because I have the cough from hell and lie down makes me cough more...my throat is so sore from heavy breathing and coughing.

Where am I at otherwise-Well i am living at my girlfriends house. A lovely girlfriend she is to let me live here..she now lives out of town and house was empty. I had a very rough 6mths or so after Alan and I split up and still days when I'd go back if he was to ask, knowing all the time this is toxic and the wrong thing. I miss what i wanted from him(hadn't had it for a long time but still miss it) I also miss Brooke, so arranged a catch up (thru her mother)with her last week when Mum was in town so that was very special and I hope to do it again not often but maybe once before Xmas hell that not far away.

And the weight well i am a size 18 I am weighing in at 97.9 and I am feeling bloody marvellous...some days I still think fat and ugly but nice clothes etc help conquer those thoughts. like tonight I was at a meeting the face heater came on over my head making me cough I got up to sit on another chair (white plastic picnic chair you all know the type we fear) I thought I cant sit in that it will break and then thought ah hello that is the old fat you this you wont break a chair this you there is room in it this you can be comfortable sitting in it without fear.

Wednesday, February 2, 2011

I'm back and so many developements

I had an awesome break...made a lot of dissions main one being ALAN must move out. It just isnt good for me him 'flating'here its kills me I have to get on and over him. So I have told him he has to go he was looking like being a pain about it but he then thought about it and he has said he will go I have given him till end of month to find something. He also has a custdoy hearing mid month that he needs to get over but that isnt my worry I HAVE TO LOOK AFTER ME.

I have no idea how I am going to aford living here alone so best get some more shit loaded on trade me and pick up the linen parties REAL soon. I am mindful this is the problem I had when marriage split up I wrked so much to keep house (and still lost it) that I had no concept of time and food consumption and gained back most of my weight lost.

I have just book to do the Dunedin marathon cool. Moro Marathon is a tough one cause a lot of hills but I have done it before so it can be done. Also going to do Chch city to surf in March (12k) and Chch Marathon in June so I have a challenge for the year.
So havnt got time to be sitting around mopping over broken heart and lost love.

http://www.moromarathon.co.nz/training_schedule.php

Also want to go to Elton John concert in November in Dunedin

for now I need to get my shit together for today

I have a meeting with councoller at 12.30 coffee group with WLS girls at 2 and pool at 5 then support group meeting for WLS clinic at 6.30 so am thinking I might flagg pool and go for a 30 min walk instead...I can park at the clinic and go for a wlak around the block then just go to the meeting.(suppose to have Zumba at 7.15 but cant do that tonght so hope to go tom morning)

just got this in an email oh how true

There comes a point in your life when you realize:

Who matters,
Who never did,
Who won't anymore...
And who always will.
So, don't worry about people from your past,
there's a reason why they didn't make it to your future.

Tuesday, January 25, 2011

off to Invercargill tomorrow

yeah I am so looking forward to the break away...god I dnt do anthing what do I need a break for but the house/home life is a real strain and bloody HARD work I can tell you.

I weighted in with a 4 k loss for the 2 weeks so was stoked with that

Went to The Court Theatre last night to c The Caberat is was great I really enjoyed it.

did I say I was off to Invercargil tomorrow

More clothes that are to big for me so might have to do some shoppinbg REAL soon hell cant be down to less than 30 pairs of pants that just would never do. Mind u winter stock will be dribbling in the stores soon so guess might be good to wait it out till then.

Applied for another 6 jobs

went for a lovely walk along the beach this afternoon...had been to my Eating Councoller and some real deep shit came out bring up some not good thoughts about me and my life so I decided not good to dwell on it or comfort eat which i would normally do I will put it to a good use so the walk along beach it was lovely not many there over cast but still nice little bit of wind. GREAT, then grocery shopping with sandy feet so left my shoes off very not corporate looking but ha i was comfortable and that wat counts.

Have been asked to look after my cousin while his wife goes up nth so that is 3 days in March good money too

was chuffed with myself this morning I booked 3 linen parties into Ashburton for wkend of 12/13 Feb so that cool I'll stay in a motel for the night. I did a wee dance I've got it Iam back i have the buzz...a busy week that one 11th 12 and 13th 4 parties hoping for a $3000 week, might make enough to get the start of my teeth fixed...they r getting REAL bad WILL GO TO DENTIST get the bottom one that has been aching since my birthday out when i get home...the hole is so big it whistles and sounds daft when I am talking.

ok best go get the tea started see ya next week when I back

oh my god Just got back from having tea checked the NZDating site and I had a message from my ex husband too funny...he was very polite commented on how good I am looking.

Sunday, January 23, 2011

cant believe it is the 23rd Jan already

how did that happen only 1 week of January left wow

I dnt know that I have done anything exciting have applied for several jobs with no luck so have decided to get stuck back into my linen and as we have a sale on at present a good time to get into it

massive 25% off all stock...

www.linenparties.com

Jo check out the gorgeous baby range.

joined a singles group havnt had any 'dates' as such but been out couple times with the group.
went to Mini golf last weekend with a group of gals from WLS group fun but I suck at mini golf hehehe
off to court Theatre on Monday night with a friend to see Cabaret should be good
and I must get to the Movies to see Burlesque with Cher

ok best go and get beautiful have linen party this afternoon

Thursday, January 13, 2011

well thats that then

its 5pm ad no phne call so didnt get the job pretty upset and fell like crap actually.

last night was enjoyable...went to a singles group and surprise myself i even spoke to several people and even some of them was men go figure. had a good tine and will go again...some of the woman get togehter too so that will be great need more contact with the world and get out there. didnt get home till nearly 12 so feeling it now nana nap time before I got to go out to a meeting at 7.30

Wednesday, January 12, 2011

how yummy does this sound

SCALLOP AND BACON SALAD - I will be making this one I am sure


Ingredients
Dressing Ingredients:

Juice of 3 limes
1 tsp grated ginger
1 clove garlic, finely chopped
1 tbsp light soy sauce
4 tbsp brown sugar
6 tbsp sesame oil
Generous pinch of salt


Salad Ingredients:

130g Krispcut Mesclun and Herbs
1 punnet pea shoots
2 avocados, diced
4 rashers bacon, thinly sliced
20 scallops
1 red onion, finely sliced
1 red pepper, finely sliced
2 tbsp oil
MethodIn a small bowl mix together all the dressing ingredients and set aside.
Arrange the mesclun mix, pea shoots and avocado on a serving platter.
Heat a wide, non-stick frying pan and cook the bacon until lightly browned. Remove the bacon from the pan and set aside.
Add the oil and the scallops and cook until lightly browned on both sides. About 2 minutes each side.
Add the bacon back to the pan with the red onion and red pepper and quickly stir together.
Remove the pan from the heat and add the dressing, stir to coat then immediately spoon over the prepared salad greens and serve immediately.
Serves 4


Been for a 5 k walk today great stuff

Job interveiw didnt go at all well yesterday and I am not holding out much hope at all so disapointed inmyself for getting so churned up and so therefore couldnt focus. god help me if I can answer a flippen phone at WINZ what chance is there for me at any job.

guess where I am off to tonight

I leave u guessing on that one get back to you.

Am organising a game of mini golf for Saturday so looking forward to that.

ok vege stack for tea so best move my butt

Tuesday, January 11, 2011

day 2 or interveiw process today

my appointment is 4.30 this afternoon so have to keep busy today so dnt get all churned up about it...off soon to do groceries that will keep me busy.

yesterday was an introduction I came away less confident though as there was like 22ppl and only 10 jobs so someone is going to miss out. But all my credit and police checks will be cool and my referees so hopefully some of the 22 will be knocked out there somewhere. I like what they said about the job and am SURE I can do it afterall it is customer service and that is what I have done for about 15 years.

ok its now after 11 so best move myself have a great day and I'll report back later

I just come across this a bit of light smut that made me smile hope it doesn affend
http://www.youtube.com/watch_popup?v=2Qdb6wC0Iz4&feature=player_embedded

Sunday, January 9, 2011

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME

day of mixed emotions

got a card from Alan and Brooke this morning but the words he wrote in it have upset me
best wishes are coming your way and with each step you take today-takes you further from your past - and s one step closer to a bright new future...what the fuck does that mean.

Of course havent heard from Anthony no surprises there.

have had lots of lovely Brithday txts emails and facebook comments from pple who do care so that is nice

have a few ppeople coming around for an impromtue pot luck tea so that will be nice and I am not stressed about it I hav made my stock standard broken glass jelly and also crumbed mushrooms stuffed with blue cheese. House is tidy and I am sitting with my feet up and have just painted my toenails so waiting for them to dry before I go find somehting that i am sure needs doing.

Shouted myself a back shoulder and neck massage on Friday for my b/day also got my face waxeed and new acrylis nails...it was while having massage that I got a phoen call about the...
big news of the week...I have a job interveiw tomorrow at WINZ customer service call centre(glorified telephone answerer but hey it a job) I think I was a bot ambisous with the retail work standing 4 hrs a day near killed me so 40hrs a week would have been the end of me but this will be great. Interveiw tomorrow then go Tuesday to see if I need firther training or can start straigth away or need further training and can under stand there system etc also get security photo taken so I am a little bit excited that that sounds VERY promising.
Got my hair booked for a cut tomorrow at 11.15 after aqua jogging and then tuesday Ngaire and I are off to Avonhead merrin St tavern for tea to either celebrte or comiserte eitherway, I have a free meal coupon for my birthday cause I am a loyalty member. Also got one frm Fox and Ferret so going there on Thursday with mate from Twizel for lunch.

ok best be off

Thursday, January 6, 2011

interesting listening

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Se32MuJCFXk&feature=player_embedded

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SeeAVkF_TeE&feature=channel

maybe I need to go to bed tonight b4 1.30 10pm bedtime for me
that will be interesting

the day after Zumba

and I can still move as amazing as that sounds.
Actually to be honest I know I didnt put my all into the class so no suprise really.
I do know I have no co-ordination rythem or bounce in my body I am a rock in the true sence of the word...I'm a ROCK hehehe

I will go again on Saturday morning

also going to join a walking group in Spreydon go out socailly on a Monday night..hope that means not hard at it and critical of slow walkers but hey give it a go.

Food sucks not helped at all by my home situation. Need a job so I can change that...applied for a call centre job dnt know when or if I'll here about that. I have sent my CV off to a couple of places too.

I have a slow day today (excepting house work of course ick) going for coffee and catch up at 2 with a girl that use to wrk for my parents like a million years ago she contacted me b4 Xmas will be nice to see here but oh my god she was only a kid when she wrked for them now she is like 47 how did that happen.

Sunday night having some friends around for pot luck tea so that is going to be awesome and should be lots of fun...happy birthday to me-Sunday I will be 51 ick how things have changed in a year...Alan put on a BBQ last year this year he hasnt even remembered its my b/day last year Anthony and Sarah was over from Aussie (not for my b/day just happened to be same time) now he not even speaking to me,last year I had security this year I have none. ok off that subject it is getting me down.

Just had a call from my eating councillor so made an appointment for tomorrow morning so a busy day tomorrow (just as well today is a quiet one) pool at 8.30 councoller at 10.30 face waxing and head shoulder and neck massage(my bday present to me) at 2 and acrylic nails at 4 groceries on way home. I guess things are back to normal

ok off to clean the loo how delightful, usually a Saturday chore but busy Saturday so off I go...have a great day

Tuesday, January 4, 2011

joined an online weight loss support group

I need all the support I can get right now. Life is throwing me curly challenges and I am not dealing with them so great.

Have been to the pool for aqua jogging several times already this year.
I am going to a zumba class tomorow evening (will give it a try again see how the knee holds up)
Trying to do a walk 3 times a week 2-5k's
The wind has been so ick lately to much trouble to get on the bike.

Food is harder to deal too.

My goals for this week are:
Keep up my suppliments
2 litres water day
Remember to eat
Get some sleep