Sarah Kate taken Oct Nov when a family friend was over in Sydney

think her hat was blowing off in the wind...how grown up has she got.
So sad i dnt see or hear from her. Miss her heaps

Christmas Post

this is going to be a Christmas post so thought I'd do it today while I am feeling not to bad.

Just been and had a coffee and catch up with a fello blogger great catching up. Then I went for a wander thru the Palms mall here in Shirley (a small mall compared to most but manic enough for me thank you) managed to get a nice summer dress for $20 at millers...of course it will need to be altered to fit me but still it had been reduced from $50 and should be easy enough to add a panel and still look tidy enough I am so over cookinng in this horrid heat. Also got a nice blouse for Mum for Christmas.

Yesterday went and meet another blogging /facebook friend we have been communicating for a long time but first time we could jell a meeting up...was neat to finally meet. And as i thought a lovely lady and hope we can catch up again soon in the new year.

This afternoon I had to pop around to pick up a trade me item I won wow when u think about it that was for me too wow a $7 blouse how selfish is that 2 things in one day. I past a house that was havign an Avon sale so called in...wouldnt actuall say it was a sale so much as a lot of avon for sale but anyways I have been hunting hi and low for sum bubble bath for Brooke (3 yr old step daughter) with no luck at all...seems girlie bubble bath is a thing of the past. Stock standard stocking filler when Anthony was a kid. So anyway she had some of the lavender BB so grabbed a bottle and went to 4 stores to get sum flippen Dora stickers and stuck them on bottle and Miss muffit will love her Dora bubbles.

Went to the doc this morning my bloods I had earlier in week were all borderline so need to improve my health...small steps drink more water, 3 20min walks a day, and eat some vegetables all things that were every day accurances and now few and far bettween so any of you can harrass me constantly about the 3. I go back early Feb and she wants some weight off shem isnt the only one I am so over this blob of a body.

Head to Timaru on Monday for a wee op at Tim hospital well that is if it isnt changed AGAIN this is the 4th date i have had. Nothing serious just a Merina inserted had one for a couple years and we tried it without see if flooding etc had stopped it hadnt so back goes another one.

Alan dad has been in hospital for 3 weeks had a fall so being held for observation etc think he is convinced a home would be better. His daughter took him to look at some today he was discharged from hosptial this morning I think it was a bit well u could have waited at least couple days before ya palm him off but wat am I to say. Alan had been around yesterday and mowed the lawns and aired the place out (he has 4 or those sickening automatic air freshner things in a little 1 bdrm flat and it is VERY over powering) did his washing etc I said i wasnt. and followed thru with it and didnt give in.

My Aunty had bowel cancer surgery last week so been up see her most days and the old man was in a different hospital of course so glad he home and Aunty Pat gone home today...long uncomfortable drive for her I would think to Westport hidious nrth west wind so sweltering heat all day.

well it is after 7 Alan will be home for tea soon 9 he is calling into see his old man after work so guess it will be closer to 8 b4 he gets home) just having chicken stirfry for tea so that will mena some veges huh even if only horrid frozen ones. and rice I think but best make a start so it ready when he get in the door so late for eating as it is.

Wish every one a happy and safe holiday season.

Love and hugs to all

XOXOXOXOXO

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ok off to dentist now it is piddling down with rain and I have to catch bus oh joy let hope it not late

3 days of toothache

doesnt make for a pleasant Felicity

go to dentist at 10 I want 3 out but guessing they will only take one at a time

My diet for a week has been instant pudding or jelly did have spagetti once but think it was the tomatoe base made the tooth worse

things are still the same in my home life

Thought I had a buyer for house in Twizel but no money showing so guess that was to good to be true to have that burden sorted...really had hoped it would be sorted b4 Christmas.
Open home this weekend fingers crossed but last one had no one show. If anyone knows anyone that might no sumone that wants to buy a house in Twizel send them this link PLEASE.

WWW.SOUTHERNWIDEREALEASTATE.CO.NZ/DETAIL.PHP?L=4198


or good old trade me

auction number 253269543

price is negotionable (SP)

just to keep ya in the loop

I am still here...here being at Chch, here being alive, here being still living with Alan...still not sure wat I am suppose to do.

We have talked but I still dont trust him I can't how can I

The funny part of it all if there is a funny part the chick he was emailing is a scam send me money so i can come to you and then never hear again from her and see your money hehehe

funny this should be my next post

my world has come tumbling down

Friday the 13th FUCK I'll say
yesterday friday I found some pretty icky emails and stuf on my partners computer
I confronted him about it Saturday after I came home from a linen party

yeah I wanted to get caught saves me finishing it, was his reply, cowards way I know

the brunt of it is he has been email this chick sending her some expilcide 'stuff'

I feel sick in the stomach, we had a huge argument, turns out I should be working-my fucken stupid linen is a joke, and my listings on trade me a waste of time... funny how this has been bread and butter on the table for over 6weeks

I have cried buckets
I have drunk a bottle of wine (bought for a celebration when I sell the house...wat a fucken joke that is)
I have walked to the lake at end of drive and thought horrid thoughts
but what I havent been able to do is work out wat the FUCK i do from here

I am in debt to the eyeballs nasty debr collecters letters on a daily basic

I have fuck all income
I am stuffed body/health wise
I have no where to go
I am FUCKED

AND I AM OUT OF BLOODY WINE

2am cant go to bed how can I it is óur'bed there is no longer and 'our'

sleep if that is what it is called after a bttle wine..I am going to regret that bttle later but it has dulled the pain just now.

he is in the spare room not asleep

as promised

Alan daughter Brooke aged 3.5

My man Alan hard at work

new friends

I meet a fellow blogger on Sat for coffee we chatted for several hours think this friendship might grow. Also meet a new linen consultant who we seem to have clicked so will see where that goes too. Both live in this area so how good is that.

have a linen meeting on Sunday with the launch of the January sale etc so that will be exciting.

I have booked my airfares and accomodation for Melbourne in Feb, for linen Conference, so god lets hope the house sells SOON

on the house sale front NOTHING and I mean NOTHING has happened with the agent I had she showed 1 person thru no interest at all funny thing the other company have sold over 10 properties in the same time i had mine listed and one house was listed one day and signed up and sold 2 days later so bull there are poeple out there wanting to buy. So I have taken house off there books and listed with another agent this person had contacted me 3 times while house was listed exclucive so couldnt do anything but hope it goes real quick have dropped my price too sadly but if I dnt do sumthing soon the bank will forclose not to mention all the other bills I have I may come out with 10grand but better that than bankrupt. Have an open home on weekend.

so if u know anyone who knows anyone who wants a home in Twizel I know where there is a nice 3 bdroom house just waiting for them to move into.

When I had coffe on Saturday we talked about weight loss and changes to make to foods etc so have made a few wee changes had slipped back into some real BAD habits I need and want to get this weight off.

That being said I went to hospital on Friday to see specailist (I am mending have medication change and some more physio so all in all he was pleased with me Not aloud to go scuba diving drat just wat I wanted to do) I got on hospital scale and I havent gained quite as much as I thought I had but still back up to 146.8k and that is a gain of over 20k and not acceptable.

I have decided to do a 6 k walk in March so need to get some fitness back by then.

best get back to housewrk Alan is home at 4 today so will be nice to have him home for the evening, normally doesnt finish till 8 he is actually on his roster day of but asked to wrk extra so is doing overtime.

CHRISTMAS SHOPPING IDEAS GETTING YOU DOWN

FELICITY to the rescue
check out a couple of mas gift list we have for the linen delivered to your door how good would that be.

if you want to know more flick me an email and I'll send you a flier.

Check out the website some amazing gift ideas... www.linenparties.com

surprise surprise it me

yeap I still alive.

Can't even rember my last post so maybe repeating myself

We have moved into our flat in Burwood it cosy but I love it here...2 bedrooms and small yard so very easy to keep. It takes me less time to vacum the whole place than it did to vacum just the lounge in Twizel.

I am plodding along with my linen. I really could do better but it is a what you put in you get out situation and I am not putting in what I should be.

Alan and I are settling into a family life nicely(this week he is tired and grumpy cause he is wrking 13 days straight but a girl can give him a little bit of lea way there, only a little mind u cant let him think he is boss) We are suppose to be getting caught up with debt but seems more comes in before any is cleared this week the car needs wrk for a warrant over 300 dollars gggrrr. So think we r taking it off the road for a bit and Alan will use scooter to get to wrk...weather is much milder now although it is dark when her leaves at 5.30 but that will soon change...will be cheaper to run fuel wise too. The company he wrks for is moving yards tand will be 30 mins dr away next month. That peeved us off a bit cause that is afterall why we looked in this flippen area for accomodation. oh well naught we can do about it.

Alan daughter Brooke (she is 3) and I are getting on well I enjoy having her here but god am I stuffed when she is gone..it is full on. I am so over emptying the potty but she is scared to sit on toilet...we have bought a trainer seat and when she is next here I'll try her on that would save me SO MUCH wrk.

Ok my health yeah well that is keeping ok...when I remember to take my meds and I see this morning I never took them yesterday ooops. I go for breathing exercises on a tuesday and chest physio once a month...I have chest xray and breathing moniter test on Monday to see if any improvement. Also have a mammogram (just regular checkup) on Tuesday and new IUD thingy the following Tuesday so other than my knees I should pass a warrant myself heehehe.

ok that is enough rambling for time being...notice I havent mentioned the weight there is a HUGE reason for that.

hospital and bad health

My health has been getting worse over the last few months actually to be honest I can't remember being well all this year. Asthma and Broncitis coming and going evedry couple of weeks...been getting worse over the last month...been to dr 4 times in 3 weeks and no improvement and then wham Sunday afternoon I couldn't get my breath had a nebuliser but still no sucess sucked on inhaler all afternoon and just got worse had another neb at 5 then Alan run an ambulance 3 more neblits in ambulance and at hospital with lights flashing. Of course I was put in quarantine till they decided I was flu free chest xray revealed I had a collapsed lung FUCK so a wee op to insert a tube into the left lung and train it...because the repritory ward had a flu scare I was addmitted to cardiac ward at 1.30am not alot of sleep had but was bloody nice to be able to breath. Had been so SCARY I tell you and alone...unfortunately Alan also is crook so wasnt aloud in the hospital because f infection so here I am fitting for breath and just wanting him to make it all better and he couldnt help me...very lonely
Next day
transfered to respitory ward mid morning helps more bloods etc Socail worker physcio doctors etc...physio is getting me some treatment for my knee go figure in for chest get me knee fixed had nothing after the bloody op on it. Have breathing classes to go to and some others to inquire about next week.
Next Day
more xray and yeap it back up so out with tube and train and more xray later in day all ok so u can go home so discharged at 7. Alan met me at door and home back to caravan not ideal but that is how it is.
Next Day
Alan dad at dr with chest infection me running around doing that taking Alan to work getting scriptions etc went over to stay afternoon with Mum just to get some rest
Next Day
Alan to dr he has phnemonia so more running around more xrays more drs more prescriptions to be collected and very little rest
later that day I had an appointment to be assessed for Green Prescription course I start on monday set myself some challenges and walked out feeling bloodybest I have felt in ages.
Today
After getting some stuff sorted here left for a walk took car to mall and walked for 20mins nothing major but better than naught and I was pleased I did it. Then went over picked up Mum and we did a few wee chores and more walking/strolling around shops. Got home about 5 Alan had tea cooked.
Tomorrow going to watch my newphew (age 5) play rugby then, tom after Alan daughter (age3) is coming to visit later tom night we are all out family dinner 22 of us for Mum and Dad 50 wedding anniversary so a long day ahead but could have been longer as I also had a linen party to do but I have stepped back moved the 5 parties I had this week, for 10days bugger but it has to be done.

email back up and running

after 92 minutes yesterday and another 59mins and 57 seconds today I finally have my email up nad running BUT any mail sent to me in the last 2 days has been lost forever but at least i have email again.

being unemployed sucks

Alan is still looking 4 work and getting so disgruntled with every rejection costing a fortune to get nowhere...just as example this morning down to get a paper 1.80 and 3 phone calls to cell number 1.50 each to be told sorry job already gone.

spent 90 mins on phone to telecom yesterday got nowhere there...I cancelled our phone b4 leaving twizel arranged that yeap could still have cellphones and mobile broad band etc nothing would change....yesterday at 3pm I had no email so rung at 5 to see why oh you cant have email on mobile broadband FUCK after 90 mins and shuffled around about 6 different ppl I got disconnected. Was OVER it all so never rung back will start that battle again today.

rung State Ins to say my house was unoccupied like ya would and told oh we dnt insure unocciped house yr insureance will cancell end of month...after arguing the point for half an hour I hung up. Grumbled and ranted about it for 5 mins rung the twizel real estate agent to see how there empty houses and holliday homes are insured she is gonna get back to me today. Then i rung state back again got a different person and a different answer i said ok if I go to Aussie 4 3wks holiday house is unoccupied so are u saying it not insured oh no she says that is different I can't see how but I got an extention to end of July re insurance and will fit that battle again another day.

PLUS the mail that was redirected from home arrived and it was an overdue rates demand pay now or else $700 an overdue phone bill pay immediately $900 and a did u forget your power bill $200 and car rego is due

WHAT MORE CAN A GIRL DEAL WITH IN ONE DAY

right now I have had my blog bleat i feel a little better

The sun is out and I am going to go and have a shower and then tackle the day starting with bloody telecom.

booked 4 linen parties for next month we have a sale on 10-70% off some items so will help my sales and bookings

life in the caravan is going fine last night was the first time I felt cold but wasnt long and I warmed up hardest part of all this is coping with Alan dad he is 81 and got parkinsons I think I do well to keep my cool but today is his day at his old pples group so a day of peace...just had that thought shattered by Alan he siad there is only 4 hrs and the old man be home - shut ya bloody mouth


If u know anyone in Chch area that want to buy a Nissan primera oops sorry just been corrected a 93 Nissan Primera I know where there is one for sale...next thing will be the furniture i think. Already got an appointment to see real estate agent in Twizel on the 26th, when I go dwn home again, to sell house it has to be done...just a very big debt around my neck I don't need and can't handle.
right look out telecom Felicity is heading your way

a down side to Chch

its midnight and I cant sleep at ome I'd go for a walk but shit cant do that around here dodgy enough in daylight.

pleny of paperwork I could be doing or trade me stuff to load but that is all in the caravan and Alan is asleep dnt want to disturb him..been a tough day for him and his Dad we got a call at 5.30am to say that Alan senoir sister died, been expected but tough all the same., so i'll just mindlessly surf the internet that usually cost me mind you.

decided today we will bring a chest of drawers dwn next trip as I am so over living out of boxes but slowly getting our little home sorted.

ok off I go to mindlessly surf the net

chat soon

settled in Chch

been here a couple weeks minus couple trips to Twzel for weekends. Had a quik trip down there this last weekend but settled in our wee home

small caravan up Alan dad drive working ok the bathroon is an issue (an 80yr old wth parkinsons is not pleasant) but generally it ok. I had a wee melt down last Wed I snapped at Alan so went for a walk when i came back he was waiting for me and apoligised for not realising how tough this is for me...no money no where to live moving away from all friends and family etc and being responcible for the move etc but I am being positive and we r on holiday isnt that right being in a caravan I can go to aqua classes (once this bloody period I have got first in 5 yrs and its a beaut is finished) swimming classes so I can learn to swim and catcing up with old friends i have lost contac with over the years....visited with a mate on Thurs and had a neat catch up.

been cooking meals here, so Alan dad is getting feed well...tonight we had vege bake and stuffed sausages very tasty

battery is getting low on lap top so best make a move and check emails and trade me.

i have been packing clothes and am over it

i have clothes all over the lounge floor...piles that I will take piles that I wont take piles to put in the to grow back down into and piles for trade me that were bought on impulse-when did I ever think I'd be a size 16..they are just depressing so out they go..and if I do no, when I do get back close to a size 16 again i am sure they will still be making them..in the meantime I have 4 boxes of clothes to get thru before I go naked in sizes 24 down to 18. Many still with labels and never worn several I dnt even remember buying...funny that.

head up to Chch tomorrow hope to be away by 12 I have an appointment at 4 on the way so the latest I can leave is 1 so planning on 12 is a good option...still have a million things to do. Off now to sort the spare bedroom...we r coming back Queen b/day weekend and bringing my mans 3 yr old daughter with us so wnat the room to look pretty for her have a nice merry go round Lorraine Lea duvet and pretty butterfly sheets have made a sign for the door Brooke sleeps here want it to be really special for her and her Dad too.

talk again from Chch

sad time my man went to Chch today...boohoo

I go up Saturday for the night we r going to stay in a motel..took every flybuy point I had but will be nice to be alone for last time in a wee while.
Got a linen party tonight so that will be good keep my mind off the empty house. www.linenparties.com
Work tomorrow 12noon till 5 and again on Monday last day. Posted a notice on work web page to sell my uniform off and have had a reply so hope that comes up trumps will be a few pennies my way...also had a bit of success with sales on trademe of late so a few dollars come in there too...thank god.

Went out for lunch with my girlfriend so was nice to catch up with her she was sad cause I am leaving.

Spent couple hours this afternnoon making a Happy Birthday banner for my man daughter she will be 3 on Saturday that is why I am going Chch but she is coming with us, mother permitting, when we come down here for Queens Birthday Weekend so I am planning a wee party for her here with a couple of my friends kids...it is also my man b/day on 1st so wee fun time for hime to spend his b/day with his girl.

guess i best get dressed etc nearly asleep actually was little sleep last night was still up fiddling around at 4am

EXCITING NEW STAGE IN LIFE

ok moving day is Tuesday next week. I am looking forward to it.Have checked umpteen different web pages re things i am going to do while there to make the move and life exciting...aquafit classes are Mon Wed and Thurs morning and swimming classes start new term. I will join the gym membership so can go to Centenial pool my fav but also can go to QE2 with the kids and Pioneer if I am over that way too. I will join the library so if things get to crowded in the caravan can so wrk there. The beach will be calling me as well. And i can get to know my family and friends that over the last 20plus years I have had little contact with. Not to mention I will be able to increase my client list for linen. I wnet to a wedding Easter weekend and met a lady there I want to contact re being my mentor she is keen for me to get intouch when I get up there so that will be grand.

ITS ALL GOOD.

heavy rain - usually a trickle

ps

will post a photo of my grand daughter I got this for mothers day

she will be 2 aug 5th

10mths and oh so many changes

not sure if I'll start blogging again but I know it helped me get thru so much shit when I was blogging so maybe I'll start again.

my life is pretty up and down just now more dwn than up actually.

huge weight gain
new relationship and the trials that brings-it hard breaking in a new man
nearly on the verge of loosing my house this time to the bank
probably have to move to Christchurch for work for partner that was tobe this weekend but now on hold so more uncertainty
have started my own mobile linen business HUGE step but I love it. flexible hours, my own boss, meet loads of lovely pple and GREAT money Lorraine Lea Linen www.linenparties.com you never know i might be heading your way one day soon.

right now I best get the fish fillets and veges on for tea my man will be home cold and hungry soon.

I will be back and hopefully it wont be 10mths between posts